dear CRAP

25th Ramadhan

2011-08-25T22:58:00.003+08:00

Its the night of 25th Ramadhan. Dugaan demi dugaan. Allah Ya Karim.

So much things happened. Ive promoted to work for the Champion Water Flood (CWF) since early July and so im very much struggling to adapt with my new work tasks. Champion7 will be my offshore platform base.Its fun yet im abit pressurized with the new work environment as i need to catch up with so much new things in a very short time! sighs.

Schedule is very much packed til end of this year. Ive CWF courses, tutorials and meetings with clients; another Project Management Assignment given where ive to work on the Quick Flange project with colleagues which we need to cooperate with BSP & SCO people and introduce this new technology into Brunei Oil & Gas company; then the upcoming SKSW Mass Tree Planting event with JPh staffs. sighs. I just need to make myself very busy so i wont think much.

Then again another task was just given 2days ago which im so looking forward to it! Im coordinating a Malay Dance performance for the company's Emblem Night Dinner this coming November. So~ to have LESS CHANCE of the audience falling asleep, i decided to make a slight difference which i proposed to committee to make a short drama ('wayang pentas') which involves singing, acting and of course dancing. Yet to get the staffs participate into this event, inda sanang! haisshh. As for the storyline, im thinking to make Brunei Historical Story into it since there will be international invitees to the dinner, and again rumors i heard is that Prince Wadud will possibly be there too *gulps* So what i have in mind is either story abt Jong Batu/Nakhoda Manis or perhaps Sultan Bolkiah & Lela Menchanai, Brunei's Rome&Juliet.Aaawwww..i just thought of making a very touching moment for audience wah sebenarnya hahaha. Not thinking of the competitions since there will be other dancing performance jua like Chinese, Indian, Philipinos and HipHop dance, i just want everything to be perfect! my god im so imaginative! like how the event is going to be nanti and how my wayang-pentas going to look like nanti. Everyhting is so much in my head right now.. my god.hahahahah.

oh well, enough about that. Anyhow Hari Raya inda lagi lama but im still not in the mood yet (tho segala ketupat sudah beranyam utk office deco with hari raya songs like everyday even the 1st day of puasa sudah) hahaha ya ryt~ nada mood konon.Eksen :p

well guess i talked too much here. hmph! gotta go.

Selamat Menunaikan Ibadah Puasa everyone! semoga mendapat keberkatan & keampunan dari Allah swt dibulan yang Mulia & penuh berkah ini. Amin Ya Rabbal 'Alamin~ :):):)

p/s: semua yg terjadi ada hikmahnya

Assalamu'alaikum

update

2011-06-01T12:15:00.004+08:00

Just came in to my taught to blog. Its been very a while & so i taught i wanted to write a little of something in here (a little? ure right~ =p) So yeah just a very quick update tho. 1st of June as for today, and here i am, laying in bed inda keraja. Bum2 hurts, and so my ankle too. Tegugur d shower-room this morning before work! sighs what a bad start of the day. Was planned to work for a half-day, rest in the morning and back to work in the afternoon. Works piling up! meetings & discussions, and busy preparing for the upcoming event with BSP. Not to forget about emails lagi. Urrgghhh! I need vacations!!!! Up in the airplane, off to somewhere. But thinking of urgent work yg balek2 kana assigned and lastminute one *pfftt* so inda tah ku jadi. Plus, he is still under probation til November and so i cant do much. Paling2 pun we just go to Miri jalan2 sana. Afterall still fun tho :):)

and plus, ive put on a lil' weight now and it worries me so much. I felt so happy before kalau aku gain weight, but not this time! coz i am very unfit, thinking of my daily meal here in kb compared to when i was in bandar. Like my staple food bukan nasi, its all fastfood, junkfood and COKE! Mcm mineral water sudah arhku and im so addicted to it.Darn it! balum lagi kfc, Ahad burgers, kebabs, sushi, ribs & lamb chops di Bucaneer tu nyaman, bla bla bla.... huhu. Thats what my life in kb. Not much entertainment in here. Campur lagi dgn stress with work so jawapannya makan lah. huhu.

and guess what.

stock makanan ku for a week (i mean.. for 1-2 days =p)

and its all because of this!

so utk mengurangkan.. this is what i always do.hehe

and these inspired & motivated me very much!

makan + work... mesti balance =p hehe

anyways, good thing about kb is i dont have to do a very long drive to go to Miri. Sebalah saja and it only takes about half-an-hour to reach to Miri Town. So sometimes if i feel like going somewhere selain kb, i'll just grab my passport and go to Miri with him after work, instead of going to bandar.hahah.Pasal before i know that going to Miri lagi sanang, i used to go bandar during weekdays after work, just to watch a movie, or makan, or just to feel like going out of kb.Midnight/subuh baru balek.hahaha great~

aMIRIka!

Tapi syg nya balek2 starbuck jua saja or k parkson, just to grab a comic book! hahahah. Anyways, here's my very first flower on Valentine's Day! :) i know we as a Muslim should not celebrate V-day, but i taught i just wanna the feeling how, and so i got a White Rose on my V-day (since red one habis sudah so ane saja yg tinggal katanya hahaha)

and i celebrated his 25th in January. And things went well as i planned, Alhamdulillah :)

secret behind a secret

2011-04-17T02:20:00.003+08:00

it was 5 years ago....

2011-03-20T03:54:00.001+08:00

A gorgeous full-moon... and a great late-night conversations :)

p/s: giving up

Assalamu'alaikum

happy with no strings attached

2011-02-15T17:00:00.003+08:00

a surprise white rose on my very first Valentine's Day :):):)

Thanks to you, bestfriend Cinta ♥

p/s: no strings attached :)

Assalamu'alaikum

Forgive & Forget

2010-12-26T23:44:00.004+08:00

"...Forgiveness is the only way to get your own peace & happiness. Learn to forgive and move on with your life. Forgive to forget!..."

got this quote from twitter.Attracts me much.Kinda agreed with it though.I mean,its true bah.. to forget something or someone easily is first to forgive them.No matter how much your heart hates them,but if you think about it maturely and throw all the negative things that had happened out of the window, insyAllah your heart will feel the joy & freedom.No more sleepless nights,tears,insomnia,bla bla bla...

once this happened to me 4 years ago.I didnt want to forgive, i didnt even want to look at their faces or hear anything about them, not even wanted to hear their name spoken."Forgive&Forget".. was so not me! to forget is not to forgive.. means you dont forgive someone if you wanna forget about them.Well that was what i thought at first lah.And i found my life was so miserable that time.Though i kept on saying "ive moved on" but the fact i wasnt! deep down i couldnt feel any freedom/peaceful in life.Every thing seemed so hard & complicated to me.Not until one day a friend came up saying "...the most peaceful thing in life is to forgive someone no matter how worst their wrongs to us..." and slowly i learned how to forgive them & be friends with them.And now Alhamdulillah i am happier more than ever! :):):)

Another friend came to me saying "you shit&go!" which means when someone dump you,you just leave them & never ever look back no matter what.Its like, if the bastard who dumps you atu contact u back, u do not respond them back no matter what.Just leave it as it is,no answers no responds,nothing at all and thats what you call "shit&go"... well~ doesnt apply to me much pulang.I just shit but i dont go,neither stay.Im just being neutral,being myself. I forgive them,but doesnt mean im taking the bastards back. Just be neutral to them, be nice. And so Alhamdulillah, i can accept things more easily now, even the worst one sometimes :):):)

ok enough with that.hahaha

its christmas eve! Jingerbell Jingerbell Jingerbell... lols.Ok muslims,we shouldn celebrate it.Ishh ishh ishh~~ anyways, 2010 is almost to the end,and welcome 2011!!!! yeayyy!!!.. cant wait for the newyear's countdown night.Coz i'll be out of town with a friend! hahahaha sekadar atu pun kan show-off.hehehe =p =p

and January ofcourse!! balloons,party,presentss (..hahaha).. so cant wait!!! hopefully my offshore schedule wont clash with my getting-"younger&manis" day.hehe :D:D

ok ok enough for now.hahah.Goodnight everyonee. May Allah swt bless us all.Amin1000x~ :):):)

p/s: January 10th, 2011... a wish come true.Alhamdulillah~ :):)

Assalamu'alaikum

:)

2010-12-07T23:11:00.003+08:00

what goes around comes around,what goes up must come down.Don't put the blames on the faith if that was the way you treated things around you.See faults on yourself first before you judge others' flaws.No offense :):):)

may Allah s.w.t bless us all. Amin~ :):):)

p/s: ...coz i still believe

Assalamu'alaikum

Life so far

2010-12-04T20:11:00.005+08:00

atu behabuk! hahaha.

hye everyone~ its good to be back,good good gooooodd~

been missing for 4months.Privated my account due to privacy concern.Well not exactly though.Aku ada life wah eh! haha =p

hhmm now where should i start?ok WORK! hhmmm So far ok.Stress ofcourse! overtime overtime overtime,extra 2hours every weekdays.Then hari sabtu pun kerja.sighs.

But at least survive ku d KB! very peaceful and fun! yes F.U.N! awesome frienddddssss :D and yes photography ofcourse.

with mr.awesome :):):)

♥♥♥

SKSWood Family Day ♥frienddss

our rocket "Bukan Team Biasa,BTB" hahahaha

oh and i just finished my BOSIET offshore training at Megamas.SUPERB FUN!!!! cant wait for my turn to go offshore.Will upload more pictures during my BOSIET training nextime okay :D

last but not least,boyfriends who always made up my days :):):) love you bestfriends.

btg's bday :)

Tang & Joul

ok that's all for now.Im exhausted.Cant think much to update.Was a very long day for me today.Back from KB tadi tengahari,then picked joul up and went straight to dst carnival,panas! then movie with them,will be back to kb tomorrow.And now here i am at joul's place,nda kan pandai ngaleh bejaur even in kb.lols.

alright night everyone <3

p/s: just go with the flow :)

Assalamu'alaikum

i'm back

2010-11-26T23:47:00.001+08:00

i'm back.. yes,i am back.. finally! :)

will blog much tomorrow :)

she,her.

2010-08-17T15:17:00.005+08:00

"You may not be her first,her last,or her only.She loved before,and she may love again.But if she loves you now,what else matters? She's not perfect - you aren't either, and the two of you may never be perfect together.But if she can makes you laugh,cause you think twice,and admit to being human and making mistakes,hold onto her and give her the most you can.She may not be thinking about you every second of the day,but she will give you a part of her though she knows you can break her heart.So don't hurt her,don't change her,don't analyze her,and don't expect her more than she can give.Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she's not there with you" - Bob Marley

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p/s: Everybody knows,but nobody REALLY knows

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may Allah s.w.t bless y'all~ :)

Assalamu'alaikum

be real

2010-08-14T13:48:00.002+08:00

stay true to yourself and don't do things to make other people happy if it makes you UNhappy!

not a pessimist,just be real.Don't come up and live with i'm-not-myself mode :)

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may Allah bless you all~ happy Ramadhan! :)

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Assalamu'alaikum

Alhamdulillah

2010-08-11T12:37:00.004+08:00

i'm a happy bunny!

berkat rezeki bulan Ramadhan~

Alhamdulillah.. Alhamdulillah.. Alhamdulillah.. thank you Allah.Thank you so much!! :):):)

aku semangat berabis!!!! mcm the everready-bunny yg full-charged! hehe

and,

AHLAN WASAHLAN YA RAMADHAN~~

bulan penuh ketenangan,bulan penuh keberkatan :)

sama bulan yg aku gerenti 100% full-charged,hyper to the top setiap hari!! hahahaha

Alhamdulillah... thanks again Allah for everything :):):)

p/s: "nda guna ada hati kalau nda tau menilai"

Assalamu'alaikum

lost trust

2010-08-01T22:36:00.003+08:00

For the second time...
i lost my trust on people surround me.. friends,family,whoever they are.
....even to myself

Feels like it was yesterday that i gt the very last piece of myself
Feels like it was yesterday i recovered from the hurtful bruises

and now that everything's torn apart
do i have to wait another 3-4 years to regain myself back???

....even worst than i ever thought.

in my mind,feels like everyone's laughing at me

and yes, i STILL feel like an idiot
coz no matter what i do... i still dream about you

Allah, i need your guidance

Assalamu'alaikum

whenever i feel overflowed

2010-07-29T22:42:00.003+08:00

"...Allah s.w.t tidak akan membebani seseorang itu melainkan sesuai dengan kesanggupannya..." [Al-Baqarah:286]

this stands me up whenever i feel like overflowed berabis,thanks Allah for loving me :)

currently busy with few stuffs.. much things to do.And singing awaits lagi,its been awhile sudah inda.Nanti tah blog panjang2.hehe.Oh and anyways,im so in love with this song,just click HERE to dengar.And this video too,HERE,i love the guy in this video,pasal suaranya lawa! hehe

bah atu saja.May Allah bless you all~ :)

Assalamu'alaikum

love in the name of Allah

2010-07-27T02:51:00.004+08:00

Playing video games almost the whole day makes you feel kinda useless eh after a while.Perhaps for people who have other important things to do siok lah kali,gaming as a hobby atau utk buang stress,but for a person like me yg tanam anggur sepenuh masa,boring sangat! It's like,sitting infront of the tv/laptop for hours,then rest for few minutes,walking around the house,jogging up & down the stairs to stretch the muscles,then back on to super concentrating the game.Sudah terasa boring,ke dapur makan sekali liat tv.So unproductive eh aku ane.hhmm.So to make my life a LITTLE productive (sikit saja tu ahh....), i went for a jog.Tapi sekajap saja since i was super mengantok.Sampai rumah tidor.Ceh!

So yeah as i woke up,i watched Mulan.How i wish i could be like Fa Mulan (huh??) hahahahah.Duuhh... fairy tale tah banar.hehe

Oh yeah,it was Nisfu Sya'aban yesterday.Ive tried to google up the history about it,but since internet connection nya ane super-duper "laju" sangat,terbantut tarus,ended up me re-watching "ayat-ayat cinta".. again! hehee.

Ntah i'm pretty much obsessed with its storyline.It is so much of my top love movie ever,eventhough some part of the movie maybe a little bit off,especially when Fahri,a muslim guy marries Maria,a christian woman.Macam inda logik.Or perhaps our mazhab is different from them kali? kali jua,i don't know lah.And Aisya is so beautiful! cantik! memang wanita yg tabah :)

I learned so much things from the movie.One thing is about jodoh,when Fahri says "...belum bisa menemukan jodoh yg benar-benar sesuai dimata Allah buat saya...".Im pretty sure people nowadays are too obsessive in finding their jodoh.Especially those yg ada career sudah,then thinking of the next step in life is to get married.As mentioned in the movie ...berkahwin membuka kepada pintu rezeki.Dan jika Allah itu benar-benar menghendaki,akan dibukakanNya pintu rezeki itu kepadamu.. To tell you,there's no point in obsessing over it and looking too hard for it.Its like,its going to happen wah when it is really going to happen.As i said,jika Allah menghendaki,it will happen! :)

Lately i've been thinking,how can i date & truely love a guy if i don't love myself more than other people?? Even worst,if i don't love Allah?? And why do i keep on asking for forgiveness from others,from the guy im in love with sedangkan to seek forgiveness from Allah belum terbuat?? Not that i have not asked forgiveness from Him langsung pulang eh.But its pointless for making mistakes and then asking Allah for forgiveness,but later doing it again.Samalah jua mcm kalau buat salah arh orang.Buat,minta maaf,sekali buat lagi.Kan betulkan org,tapi diri ku sendiri masih jauh menyimpang belum betul.I think thats the reason why i am still not ready to settle down,not to get attached with anybody else,not thinking of bertunang kahwin or apa,despite im stil very very young.I gotta love Allah first,love myself,then baru cinta yg lain.Coz to find someone to love in the name of Allah,is a very very huge challenge! And being able to put aside all of the fears & doubts that i have,& be going almost blind into relationship/marriage thingy in the name of Allah,is very very tough! Almost like an impossible task to me!

Ive always used to think that there was something wrong with me,womething odd that i needed to change,especially when looking into my love life that didn always last long.Then i came to realise that it think,i need to grow up a little,to be a mature person with a muslim way of life.And it feels good to get me up to this point when i finally realised that being in a relationship,or scared of dying alone are not the most important thing in life.Indeed,whats more important is how we strive to be the best person that we can be in a right way.I am not saying that you cannot cari your pasangan hidup or i will not mencari pasangan hidup kah apa.Its not that eh.What im trying to say is,janganlah kan impress org by what we are doing kalau keikhlasan & niat tu salah.Jika Allah menentukan & menghendaki,mesti terjadi.Walaupun 10-100tahun.hehee.Always remember Allah.Jangan tah kan curse luck about how life is treating you ataupun sasak annoyed that things arent going on your way.Bukan aku tahu cakap saja,tapi memang semua org mcm atu.So what i always did... sabar saja.And Allah s.w.t for sure has plan for all of us sudah so all we can do is to have faith & believe that whatever happens,ada hikmah disebaliknya.

Ok thats all i guess.Sorry kalau my perception salah or what.Coz its 3.30am sudah.hehe.Oh and last one....

Tak perlu mencari teman secantik Balqis,jika diri tak seindah Nabi Sulaiman.

Mengapa mengharap teman setampan Nabi Yusof,jika kasih tak setulus Zulaikha.

Tak perlu mengharap teman hidup seteguh Nabi Ibrahim,jika diri tak sekuat Sarah.

Dan mengapa didamba teman hidup seistimewa Siti Khajidah,jika diri tak sesempurna Rasulullah.

Tak guna ada mata kalau tak dapat melihat

Tak guna ada hati kalau tidak tahu menilai.

Terimalah kekurangannya sebagai satu keunikan :)

Wallahu'aklam

Assalamu'alaikum

love

2010-07-25T12:09:00.003+08:00

its good to be back to where you used to be right? :)

well yeah no doubt.Life must go on.Worst comes to worst,paling2 pun lost weight jua saja... mesti belajar dari kesilapan,i guess.

abg kata i should cut off any of my social networks.Well yeah i did.. for a while.heheh.i mean.. why should i? Afterall,it WASN'T my fault.Partly perhaps,selalu lalai kan belajar dari kesilapan lama.Well,life must go on.I gotta be professional here.hhmm.Sometimes i wonder kalau berdiam diri lebih baik dari bersuara? entah i don't think so.Org ego & hypocrite saja mcm atu kali.hhmm.

i just cant wait to start working.. the REAL working life i mean.Away from everything,away from bandar,away from everyone! with new environment,new friends,new living place.

currently im making my self busy so i wont think of those useless stuffs much.Busy preparing my project for the upcoming expo in august ane since HM will be there.Filling my sparetime berjogging,squash,tennis,swimming,studio,etc jua.Then got a phone call from SKSwood yesterday.. will be recieving all the documentations and contract someday around nextweek so i gotta prepare testimonials,acception letter,bla bla bla,and gotta prepare myself for my training under SKSwood somewhere in august jua.Uruskan rumah lagi apa.Then perhaps the CIPTA award lagi,atu i dont know.hhmm.

im tired.im exhausted.Not physically,but mentally,or should i say on feelings? sighs.

hectic times.

and yes i do admit.. it feels good talking/sharing problems with someone who really knows you very well,really really understand you luar-dalam,who cares so much about you.Now i know how "you" feel.sighs.im sorry.Now i know,siapa yg decisive and siapa yg indecisive.Wish i could turn back time,really.sighs.

i feel like an idiot now.ntah.

today i re-watched "ayat-ayat cinta" again.Macam for the past few days cerita atu saja ku liat.I went to komunis beli few dvds but ended up me watching ayat-ayat cinta saja jua.Berapa puluh kali sudah ku liat and think how differently myself would be if i were in that situation.Its like... how can you fall in love at first sight?? as if mcm you automatically know yg that person you're in love at the first sight with is the person you are supposed to spend and live the rest of your life with nanti.Its crazy wah! well nothing wrong with it plg,romantic pulang bnr eh.Aku pun mcm... how i wish to meet my future husband and definitely know that this guy is definitely the one for me,the one im gonna spend my life with,hidup mati dunia akhirat apa sama-sama nanti.Tapi doesnt makes sense wahh.Ive came acrossed with a man mcm atu TWICE actually,tapi alum jua ku kawin ni! hahaha.This whole idea of love really drives me crazy,stress me out bebanar.And ive been pretty much obsessed with these romance ideas.Sampai i said to my nenek "ok ill be busy working cari duit.. kita carikan saja aku laki,aku malas mencari.Org dulu kana jodohkan kekal jua sampai ane,so kita lah jodohkan aku dgn siapa2 yg kita rasa ok utk aku" HAHAHAHA coz im super exhausted sudah wah!!! I know this may sounds exaggerating a lil',but in every of my sembahyang i always pray to Allah so that one day aku dapat jumpa my true love.. who will complete me,and be my imam,who can lead me ke jalan yg lurus ke jalan yg bnr,who can make me a better person,a better muslim woman.Its not that aku gatal/gagas kan kawin.NO!! ive planned everything sudah for my life in 3-5years ahead.Tapi siapa jua inda mau mcm atu kan? jumpa your true love with full of iman and barakah from Allah,who can guide you and be your imam.Just like the one in "ayat-ayat cinta" atu.hhhmmm :)

wallahua'lam~

p/s: life is unfair to us?? or is it us who make life so unfair????? hhmm

Assalamu'alaikum

clicks with girlfriends

2010-03-24T23:16:00.009+08:00

AT LAST!!!! periksa aku dah habiisss~ Now waiting for the results, 2-3weeks of sleepless nights?? sungguh saya tidak suka.hhmm.

btw another photography outing with them girlfriends last saturday (baytul & zeea, sory nda terinvite kamu.Lastmin plan :s)

Anyways first, make-up sessions, then went off to pantai muara.Not much shots taken tho, and im still not satisfy with my focus mode.Banyak kabur,terpaksa polish by editting them.sssiiiiiiiiiiiggggghhhhhhhssssss.I wish i have 'nuff money to buy my own dslr camera lah :(

so,here are some of the pictures i took.More will be posted n my fb

i guess i need to practise MORE, MORE, MORE, MORE & MOOOORRRRRREEEEEE~~~~ hhhmmm.

btw boyfriends ku syg tangOul, aku LAWA sudah! bah bila?? hehee (NOT charcoal! lols)

p/s: jangan menyerah~ :)

Assalamu'alaikum

Hawa's

2010-03-18T23:58:00.003+08:00

another photography session.. with hawa ♥

just a few tho, more pictures will be uploaded in my facebook

next photoshoots? tomorrow & saturday, insya-Allah~ :)

24th.. presentation & interview at seria.Bismillahi Tawakkaltu 'Alallah~

p/s: indestructable... for a will never give up :)

Assalamu'alaikum

Empire

2010-03-15T13:54:00.007+08:00

another photoshoot at Empire yesterday afternoon, just a random shots though, solo outing (bari kesian bunyinya hahaha) Saja buang stress, bsp form punya pasal lols

ehem2 ada org anniversary kemarin.aaaawwwwww~~~~ hehee~ Happy Anniversary to both of you!!!!! =D

and to my besty & her bf pun, Wana & Asmaan, Happy Anniversary!!!! (PS aku sudah booking tu ah jadi pengangun/pengapit/mak andam :p:p)

and finally this! which made up my day kemarin! pasal aku suka topping nya berabis sama kiiiuuuttt!!! aku suukkkaaa!!!! hahaha thanks ma! hehee~ :p:p

Assalamu'alaikum

i'm sorry.

2010-03-13T23:07:00.003+08:00

I'm so sorry if i tore you heart apart that night.
and i SINCERELY, COMPLETELY apologise upon the things i said/did

didnt realise how bitchy that night i was.Didn't mean to.I'm so sorry.Really really sorry.sighs,

p/s: imy.

Assalamu'alaikum

another one

2010-03-11T03:00:00.005+08:00

another shots at Empire

model: kelly :)

Just a few of 'em.Still editting the other pictures.More will be uploaded in my facebook, insyAllah :)

girlfriends yg karaks-oke, jgn jeles~ hehehe.Nanti tah turn kamu okay.Masih ku belajar cemana,belum berapa pandai.hehe~ :) ♥♥

biceps ku.Ccoooobbbbaaaa~~ popeye bini :(:(

nextweek?? BSP briefing, presentation & interview.Bismillahi Tawakkaltu 'Alallah~~~

Assalamu'alaikum

my shots

2010-03-09T21:16:00.000+08:00

feeling less buruk? this is what i did.hehehe.Took few shots using my brother's Nikon D90 DSLR Camera, just using the 55-200mm lens (pasal lens nya yg lain rusak! ganas!).. taken shots edited using photoscape software.Tried few film effects,very nice one hehehe.

locations?? jerudong park and my brother's room.hee~ tried other locations too; Muara Beach... and UBD Sport Complex >> (turun2 ayam since aku LAPAR bnr kan meliat urg main bula msane.lols.Nada team bula brunei main lagi kah??)

ohh and im working on few songs covers too now with my brother, bb. Malas ku kan mencari pianao/guitar codes nya so i asked him instead.lols.

Next shots/locations?? tomorrow insyAllah :)

p/s: it's getting dull... grey & flavorless.sighs.

Assalamu'alaikum

Apa'an~~

2010-03-07T20:11:00.004+08:00

i still do not know what i want and what i need.To differentiate between those two pun, still i dont know how. Some people says, follow what your heart wants/needs. While others say think before you choose/decide something, jgn main redah2 ikut kata hati saja.Apa'an~~~

and i still cannot feel the satisfaction in life. Tried many new stuffs, experienced diff kinda things, tried this and that, enjoyed to the fullest doing this and that, did tonnes of fun thingies with people around me, but still..... life feels so empty. Its not that i didn had fun at all, but to think it all back, whats with all the fun & blasts when the real fact is that i actually feel empty deep deep ddddeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeepppp inside my heart (eseseehh kalah cerita dang anum eh.Inda juuuaaa~~~ :p)

i wanna talk more and more, but i just dont feel like sharing with anyone yet. Im tired. Yeess im tired with the all the talking.

life's getting boring.Especially sejak jadi ketua kampung bertauliah ane.Bblleerrgghh! I miss school, i miss doing assignments and reports, i miss doing practicals and project, i miss cramping my otak dan urat saraf utk tests and exams, i miss getting busy with school stuffs, and what i miss the most?? making fun of the lecturers (nadawaaahhh~~~ :p:p)

Yatah i cannot stay at home, or otherwise i will feel so so buruk.Plus with the pokai thingy lagi.hhmph.And i so so sooo cant wait for BSP call, mudahan tah aku dapat. Its my only hope since i only applied for degree at itb, not scholarship. Hope i can get it.Amin amin amin ammiinnnn 1000x!!!!

i think thats all for now.Aku lam-alif-par! And im sin-lam-ya-pi! not healthy huh?? i kknnooww~~ :( i gained weight a lil'.And yess i HATE my bicep! its like boing2, or is it toing2?? ohh u know what i mean lah. Need to workout, IF im rajin jua. Gosh whats up with the penyakit M ane kaann, you lazy bum-bum! sighs.

Assalamu'alaikum

Happy Birthday Ma~

2010-03-02T22:32:00.007+08:00

Happy 47th Birthday to my mama, my ratu hati kuuu!!!!~~~

i love you ma.. you're the queen of my heart.
Loving you is like food to my soul.
You've always been around me, through my ups & downs, goods & bads.
There isn't anything or anyone i can be.
And things just wouldnt feel right if i don't have you by my side.
No one else can do what you have done for me ma.
you're the greatest of all!
i love you SO MUCH ma!!!! i love you, i love you, i love youuu!!!!!
always & forever~~ ♥♥♥♥♥

p/s: im so happy for you joul!!! (nda tah ada chance kan charcoal gayanya ni) =p

Assalamu'alaikum

hiding

2010-03-01T20:00:00.001+08:00

i think ive been hiding alot lately.hehe~

didn blog much mcm previous months.Even facebook,inactive.Ngaleh ku sudah (ngaleh?? im jobless! tapi malas) :p

i did feel sooo wanna blog and share with you guys what i did and what i felt lately.But its TOO much i think. and i didn know where to start pun.

its been such a hectic weeks.Been thinking alot lately but with no clear visions at all.I tend to get confused easily, very2 indecisive even on such a simple thing that i couldnt think right.Boyfriends, im so sorry for i have done infront of you guys semalam :(:(:(

i wont deny.. i made so much mistakes.Made few decisions so immaturely,and in some point i just leave it to time to heal it.And in return,regretting it.Heard few critisisms, feedbacks & reviews about me from my closed friends.No doubt that i am now the opposite of myself yg dulu.Ive changed lotss! It's like,kyrun is a different person and nisa is a different person.Sounds funny huh,but that's the fact.I wasnt a girl who can easily share anything and everything with people,not even with my bestfriends or closefriends.I was kinda pessimist person,the critical one.Very2 serious,a day dreamer.And i kept things to myself,almost everything.Wasnt an out-going type of person,very2 negative.But now,i think you guys know me better.hehee

heard another critics from my closed ones, of me being too choosy in love.For me being too ignorant towards the opposite sex who wants to know me better in a serious intention.Its not that im jual mahal or ambung or what,but its something that i hardly cant explain you know.Some people get me wrong,when they see me going out with guys that they thought im such a flirty,changing partners and others.Well,im just having fun.And to find the right one,its not that easy.They're just my guys friends,aint nothing special.Or otherwise,we would be holding hands tia mun bejalan but the fact is inda jua ada ku cematuuu.

well,whatever.

i think im missing the past alot.Damn it! why do i have to talk abt the past over and over again eyh?? sighs.

had a serious talk with this someone few nights ago.Discussed abt the future,what the outcomes gonna be like nanti since we've came this far,much obstacles especially on my side.. and so we decided to end up everything before any worst thing happen.The best decision made i supposed.And i was so happy that things finally cleared up.

but to be true,i think im so missing that someone right now.Regretting again?? i dont know. Perhaps no perhaps yes. Yet, im still not ready to be in a relationship.Coz i need to stabilise everything first,and pull back myself to where it used to be.Though im having fun at the outside, but inside? i think you guys know what.

should i say that he's the most sincere guy ive ever met? should i tell he's the combinations of my 2 ex-significant others?? well,i dont know.Of all, i do not go for a person who doesnt play hard to get something he wants, a person who only want things to go on his way with him not to have berusaha keras to get it. I do not want that. Been in a serious relationship twice,and im so fucked up dealing with that kinda person.I want to be a girlfriend instead of a BOYFRIEND.. i wanna feel of being respected and appreciated. No things for that guy to worry about,coz i definitely will not play behind his back, and will 100%ly be loyal to him IF he gve the same amount of contributions as me.Alum ada sejarah ku mainkan anak urg.hehe

oh well,enuf abt that.Today's is my brother cuzn's birthday. Hazmial Hapidz. And soon i'll be off to nini's place to celebrate it, with his new-born baby (18/2/2010) named Zulfah Zakirah :):):) And tomorrow, my ratu hati punya birthday. But sadly, i do not have any gift to give.No budget,so sorry ma.Will get sumthin special for you as usual nanti,perhaps end of march or april.hehe.

well i guess im off now.Oh before that, try to listen to ne-yo's song, "never knew i needed'.. Its the princess & the frog's ost.I love it.Reflections of what im feeling i guess.hahahahahaha.Ok chiaowww~

p/s: girlfriends, aku rindu kamu jua~ :(:(:(

Assalamu'alaikum

package

2010-02-24T09:27:00.004+08:00

"Love is always patient & kind.It is never jealous.Love is never boastful nor conceited.It is never rude or selfish.It does not take offense and is not resentful.Love takes no pleasure in other people's sins, but delights in the truth.It is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope and to endure whatever comes"

i love this quote, very much! it's a complete package, the most perfect one.This is my favourite.

guess where i get this quote?? :)

p/s: indecisive

Assalamu'alaikum

boys over girls

2010-02-23T02:00:00.001+08:00

i just realised that ive been going out with guys much rather than with girls, much like very too much! surrounded much by guys, make friends with guys more than girls, like to socialise much more with guys, that i act & think TOO much like a boy. Even my mama said so, me always with my guys friends. Perhaps pasal terbiasa kali, because when i was a little girl, i didnt have much girls cousins with the same age as me, only boys saja.So obviously i only played with them boys cousins.. football, lari2 panjat pokok, buli2 kucing, lastik2 cicak, main sumpit2 pakai straw and green beans, pernah lamas, gugur dari almari when i was a kid like always, even kelayie betumbuk with the boys pun pernah, and much more. Main masak2 with the other kids?? so not me tu. hehehe.

Well, i ain't proud of being that way anyway.It's not a good thing pun, am i right?? but that's me, i just love being that way. At least i know my limits. I aint a playgirl. I aint flirting whenever im with my boys, im just being nice to them.

But to think it back, i gotta kurang kurangkan being with the boys and go out more with the girlfriends (credits to hawa for telling me abt THAT thing) hehee~ :D

well, just a random thought, again! coz it's 2;15am and i can't sleep! wanted to blog abt what i did lastweek but so many pictures to upload. Perhaps tomorrow tah, or lusa. hehehe

anyways, i watched percy jackson tadi mlm. Coz i was fucking bored bah.huhu.The movie wasnt that bad tho, ok2 jua~ next movie?? NIYANG RAPIK!!!!!! a must-watch movie! cant waiitt!!~

oh oh oh, to my Brunei Darussalam tercinta, HAPPY 26th NATIONAL DAY!!!!!

p/s: Zulfah Zakirah ♥

Assalamu'alaikum

bitter over life's disappointments

2010-02-15T17:20:00.004+08:00

"..the important thing is not to be bitter over life's disappointments. learn to let go of the past. and recognize that every day won't be sunny, and when you find yourself lost in the darkness and despair, remember it's only in the black of night you see the stars. and those stars will lead you back home. so don't be afraid to make mistakes, to stumble and fall, cause most of the time, the greatest rewards come from doing the things that scare you the most. maybe you'll get everything you wish for. maybe you'll get more than you ever could have imagined. who knows where life will take you. the road is long and in the end, the journey is the destination.."

okay, just a random thought.Have no idea what i am doing right now, and yes i do not know what to do! Just feel kinda guilty in someway, and somehow scared much coz im fucking afraid of what and where the future will brings me to.Being over over overr cautious much?? well, i'd been trying hard not to, though im too scared of stepping on the wrong shoes again! I gotta be brave, right? til when i should let the past keeps on holding me back?? am i right? coz i still remember a friend said to me to only look at what you have left, not to look on what you have lost.

i miss my brother anyway.sighs.No matter how much wrongs he'd done, no matter how harshed he'd been to me all this time, and no matter how he could not be much like a brother to me, i do still respect him. and i do still love him.sighs.Damn what am i talking abt?? well yeah that's one of my weaknesses, easily missing someone.hhmm.

I think i've been thinking too much lately that ive lost some weights.Brother and parents,i just dont understand you.How i really really wish there are undo and delete buttons in real life so i can go back to when i was 16, the time when there was no loving caring cupids thingy,the time when i was still HANCING! or at least i wish there's a forward button so i can fast-forward the time way way waaaayyyy to the future!

age 17, when i started to know what life is really all about.Funny one heh? all the things that come and go, betrays and lies, ups and downs, friends to enemies, even the very worst thing ive ever done that are beyond your expectations about me... now that im 22, changing or growing up?? i dont know.

it's not that im not happy on what im currently having... i AM happy,yes i am! But to be TRUELY happy?? not yet i think.

im too scared, much more than ive ever felt!! sighs.

im not scared of losing anything, im not scared of fights and arguments, im not scared of facing new stuffs...

but im scared of the outcome to where i put 99% of my contributions & priorities on it, yet the behind fact that i may not know is that im only an option to it. sighs

okay,enuf with the craps! I seriously need a chocolate! something with cocoa in it! or perhaps tongkeng? and beach? hhheeeiiissshhhh mana c jul kleng inda mereply msg ku ane kkkkkkaaaaaaaannnnnnnn??????~~ dude where are you???????

p/s: Do not make someone a priority and give everything what you have, for that someone will only make you as an option in return.

Assalamu'alaikum

a busy week

2010-02-13T19:24:00.004+08:00

a very busy week!

monday - went to James Hon for scholarship thingy.Bad news,durang inda mau tulung so i have to uruskan everything :( then dropped by to jim's place sekajap, checking on his new song plus editting planning. And of course jadi supir-girl every afternoon.heishh.Then off to kelly's place at night, girls-talk, curhat session *huggss*

wednesday - went to ITB, preparation for my presention utk itb's info day on the 13th. Rushed back home, jadi supir-girl! Malam went to jim's place again, continue helping him with editting planning. Then went straight to ema's place since she needs help for itb thingy after dari jim's.

thursday - went to ITB lagi, sambung editting our presentation's slides. Then went to AME for awhile.Rushed back home again, menyupir. Malam busy revising few things for tomorrow's BSP aptitude test (have to be di seria at 7am!!)

friday - BSP aptitude test! (and i only slept for 3hours! kali drive jauh2, awu lawa mengantuk eh!) The test was sucks.Plus i was sleepy berabis, kali inda sampat breakfast lagi, lawa eh lapaarrr.Palau2 lagi inda dapat befikir pasal mengantuk+lapar berabis! hahahaha. Then after jumaat's prayer, k ITB lagi helping the lecturer preparing things for tomorrow's info day. Lepas tu,went to jerudong beach sekajap (fresh utak rasanyyaaaa~). Malam preparing speech for my presentation,plus helping najwa with her homework. ngalleehhh~~~ :(

today - ITB's Info Day!!!!!! from 730am - 530pm d itb. And as for tonight?? eh nyaman melimpang d katil ane ehhh~~ hhhmmm.hehehe.Heard there's another ABO gig at jp tonight.Was thinking to go, sounds fun!! tapi... naaahh~ i miss my katil much la.ekeke.

ohh i think i lost weight, aarrgghhh!!!!

perhaps pasal worried much atu kali, thinking too much. And now worry pasal BSP lagi. Nextweek will be the result. Kalau short-listed, then they will call us for a briefing, interview and project presentation on this 24th! Project presentation???!! bblleerrgghh!!! not agaaaiiinn~~ IF short-listed, if INDA???? BSP ohh BSP, be kind to me pppuuuuuhhhhhlllllleeeeaaaaaasssssseeee~~~~~~~ :(:(:(

ohh anywayss, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR to all kina2!!!!! hehehe

p/s: "pukul anam shetangah~" BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!

Assalamu'alaikum

Angels Cry

2010-02-09T01:15:00.004+08:00

in love with this song. Given by judy, rasanya kan meliatkan body c mariah carey bida di sini bah. hahahaha! ;p;p

Angels Cry by Mariah Carey ft, Ne-yo :):)

p/s: wish there are undo and delete buttons in real life.sighs.

Assalamu'alaikum

once upon a monopouse (huh?)

2010-02-07T20:35:00.005+08:00

it's not me who doesn't move on... but it's you who keeps on pushing & holding me back to my past

its been years and years and yearssss...... and just because of this ONE SPECIFIC GUY, your perception towards any boyfriends im with will always be wrong, totally wrong!!!

like, it's MY past, not yours. Ok perhaps you wanna protect me from stepping on the same shoes, but you're being too OVER-PROTECTIVE!!! tho you're part of my family, but i still wana have some privacy dude! I wanna have and feel my own personal life without you nagging and bugging me not to do this and that! dude, i know my limits and responsibilities okay! and i still make family as my first priority in life, while you???? heh! everyone knows it lah! ain't tryna be rude here, but do not, DO NOT push me to shit things up even worst on you, ever! Why can't you just let me decide my own life?? for once dude! a lil bit of kind BROTHERLY advise would be nice, instead of blaming bugging nagging me with your motherfucking life theories and experiences. Dude cmon, ive been in your case! ive been in your shoes! even worst! and you know that. But why you still.......?? bblleerrgghh nevermind!

---- alright, emo me? GAHHH!!!! apa ni? drama drama drama.Apakaaann~~ mengalahkan cerita shrek saja jua eh. Cubatah a lil bit of fairy tales mcm cinderella story ok jua sikit nah.hmph!

ok ok enough said. Emo inda baik utk kesihatan. Membagi capat monopouse. huh?? hahahaha! *pasang lagu pitbull* oh yeah! ;p;p

anyhhhooooooowwww~~~~ lastnight was super awesomee!!!! great great! :D

was supposed to attend my cousin's function (mlm berbedak) when mommy came to my room and asked, and so i said malas eh.Apparently i was thinking to dine out since im craving for soto.But i know my parents wont let me out since i didn stay much at home this whole week.Plus, i just arrived home like an hour or 2, then kan bejalan kali lagi?? siap kana basuh telinga ku krg.hahahaha! So what i did?? tapuk2 jalan and came back home before durang balik ;p;p

so thinking to where i should go, i texted my jul kaleng.Set with the plan then off i pick him up lapas durang mama babah jalan ke jemputan sudah.ekeke.

but instead of menyoto,we went to JP kan menongkeng and joined btg and his friends there for A Band Once Mini concert.Ssseeerrrroonnooookkkkk!!!!!~~~ sudah lama tidak pigi to this kinda event, 2 fucking years aku bawah tempurung tryna be a "GOOD" girl! bbbbllleeeerrrggghhh. And i miss them friends di singapore jua.Missing our moments in stage lah kamuu~ :(:(

Anywwwaayyysss~~~~ JP was so crowded with people yatah tongkeng nya batah kan masak!!!! Last2 makan ayam salainya saja, but still nnyyyyaaaaaaaammmmmmaaaaaaaaaaannnnnnnnnnnn~~~~~~~~~ slurp slurrpp.I should have taken pictures of it.Nyum nnyyuummm~~ ;p;p;p

and yes yes yesss, ramai urg HANDSOME ni minggu ane.Especially si.......... *kirai2* ($_$) ($_$) hahahahaha kapak tajam bnrrr. lols!

p/s: im sorry.. so sorry.. really really sorry

Assalamu'alaikum

when boredom strikes

2010-02-04T23:48:00.001+08:00

when boredom strikes. Or should i say when the pressure strikes?? gulps!

pen-tatooed. Sajaaa~ :)

found this at one of the kedai kain somewhere in rimba this afternoon. Weird sarung's brands huh? ku pikir kana panggil kain batik/kain tajong saja. Rupanya ada different brands puunn. hahahaha =p

p/s: whatever i do, will always be wrong to you. And im so sick of you accusing me like always, just because of my past! sighs

Assalamu'alaikum

ngaleh

2010-02-03T20:07:00.003+08:00

HECAS, UCAS, HRD, James Hon, dealing with MOE = pressure!!! sighs.

have SO MUCH things to do, yet SO LITTLE time!!!

yesterday and this afternoon = went to the UK exhibition at the empire and rizqun. Get to talk personally with the unis representatives. The only unis which offer the course i want with low requirements meeting up my gps points are Uni of Bradford & Birmingham. Still not sure whether i should uruskan everything by myself directly to the unis then thru HECAS, or should i ask help from James Hon's services saja. Pasal point ku atu bah, takut durang inda mau tulung coz HRD surely inda mau tulung. HRD, not so kind. And MOE will not be so so kind pun.sighs.

tomorrow = Need to go to itb, AGAIN!!!! kan minta reference letter & analysis of my final transcript. Then off to James Hon's if sempat.

Friday = continuations of everything, perhaps will be going to James hon kali lagi. Ngaleh ku eh!!! :(

On the 6th, saturday = i have to go to ICC for the scholarship's talk, since i approached one of the MOE's officers tadi asking abt my applications then points lagi inda cukup so she asked me to see her on the 6th during the talk with me bringing all personal details & testimonials from lecturers. Atu pun mun lecturers dapat siapkan by saturday ane jua.sighs.

13th (nextweek) = presentation for ITB's info day as our final year project is chosen to be demonstrated under the Department of Mechanical Engineering's section.Aarrgghh!!! I haven't started with my slides editting yet. Revise balik pun alum ah! Perhaps this monday tah eh. Then will be spending the whole week at ITB (again??) to check our designed project atu, takut ada faulty kah apa since it will be demonstrated during our presentation atu nanti. Awu mun banar ada faulty kepisan tu banar ehh. sigghhss :(:(:(

HECAS application lagi will be closed on the 4th of march. Which means everything must be done befo 4th. Nada membagi chance bah durang ane. heeiisshh! :(:(

not just that, graduation robe lagi aku alum belurrriiihhh. Ada ku telanjang pulang saja krg naik ke pentas time graduation ah stripping. Nah sasak tah ku tu! Haiiyyoo, miana ini?? Kerja pun alum adaaa. Cant shop much = stress much! Parents and grands keep on nagging me, asking me dapat keraja kah alum since it's february sudah. And i have to uruskan everything by myself!!!! jadi amah aku jua, jadi supir-woman aku jua, P.A utk diri sendiri aku jua (hahahahaha membari jauh hati). Eh nnggggaaalleehh kkuuu!!!!

ngaleh kuuu. Ngaleh ngaleh ngaleh. Perhaps because of this menstrual thingy ane kali jua. Nnnggggaaallleehhh~~ not enough rest, not enough sleep. Thinking too much. Worry too much. HECAS, UCAS... be kind to me pppllleeeaasseeee~~~ :(:(:(

- AIN'T GONNA GIVE UP!!! -

p/s: can i cry now???

Assalamu'alaikum

Happy Birthday BABAH!!!!!!

2010-02-01T23:20:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 50TH BIRTHDAY to my deeeaarrrrreeessttt
BABAH!!!!!

love love love you always babaahhh!!!!~~~ ♥♥♥

(pandai babah posing begambar atu =p)

p/s: 2more months to go, thenn... kaching kaching!!! $_$

Assalamu'alaikum

smokey-eyeshadow

2010-01-29T23:17:00.012+08:00

smokey-eyeshadow technique, that's what ive been wanting to try. Been watching michelle phan's make-up tutorials in you-tube few times.A very-very good make-up tutorials lah i wud suggest *thumbs up*

Went to julian's place this afternoon for a while, talked abt make-up thingy. Oh by the way, julian's a make-up artist in singapore, a good friend of mine. She works there at one of the fashion company, antah inda ku ingat namanya apa.hehe.So its a credit for me to learn more abt make-up stuffs since she's currently here in brunei for few days.I dont know why but yess im soooo into this stuffs, beside cooking and baking. Yess, i gotta learn all these stuffs!! Remember when i talk abt transformation thingy in my previous post?? yeah, that's what im TRYING to do masani.hahahahah ;p;p

so lapas dari julian's, i went back home and straightly grab my make-up things then cuba the smokey-eyeshadow technique.I just applied the basics style lah since i do not have all the gggoooooooddd-bbrraannnddeedd make-ups.blleerrghh.Nanti2 tah ku bali mun ku kaya.lols! so anywaayyss, i made a purple-ish theme for my eye-shadow colour, where i used combinations of 4-different colours. And vvoooaalllaaa!!!!! menjadi jua!!! hahahaha. Will try with different colours lagi nanti hehehe

big-thanks to julian for the tips =)

unfortunately right after i finished with the eye-shadow-ing thingy, terus kena bawa arh org bbq. And so terpaksa ku mencari baju yg match with my eye-shadow colour. Inda kan make-up di mata purple tapi baju merah, out jua tu. hahaahahah! Thank god i have baju purple. lols! ;p;p

oh anyways,

HAPPY 22nd BIRTHDAY to

NAZMI AHMAD!!!!!!!!

ok peeps, nite. Chiaow~ :D

Assalamu'alaikum

"HEALTHY" =p

2010-01-26T17:53:00.001+08:00

i am so UNproductive these few days. All i did was tidor, makan makan makan, then tetidor, then bangun makan again! Then makan makan makan! Beside being amah and supir lah ofcourse. But most of the time, its all about eating and sleeping, and EATING, again!!!! Gawd, so unhealthy of me kan? So yesterday morning i went to jog along the red-jogging track at stadium, then did few exercise with dumbell at night. Gotta make this as a routine kali bisai, ujung2 buntu krg mcm dugong! :(

Friends texted and called me to hang out. What did i say? malas ku eh, or ngaleh ku syg. Or perhaps, sibuk ku, kapih ku. hahahaha. Yess, kapih so i really need to work. Work=money=shopping=more fooooodddd!!!! Ohh enuf about food you bitch! *kicking myself* hahahaahaha. Seriously i need/MUST control this! but hhhooooooowwww???~~ buhuhuu~ :(:(

its been awhile aku inda ke pantai nah. The last time i went to tungku waasss...... 2 weeks ago?? huhuu~ nanti tah. And perhaps i'll be going to KB this weekend... meeting him =) well, just a plan plg, thats if im NOT that malas lah. lols =p=p

anyhhooooowww~~~ this is my current favourite song! Lagu tidor ni. hehee~ I like it much! Its by Leona Lewis, I see you~ (OST_Avatar).. like it much much much!!! :):):) ♥♥♥

uurrgghhh~~ im so hhuunnngggeeerreeeyyyhhhh~~~~ and a lil' bit of seeelliiipppeeehhhh~~~ unproductive, unproductive!

hooii, MUST STAY FIT!!!!!~~~~~

p/s: complicated?? YES, very much!!... impossible?? NO!!... givin' up? NEVER!!!! :D:D

Assalamu'alaikum

HAHAHAHA!!!!

2010-01-24T20:57:00.003+08:00

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BBQ at home

2010-01-22T19:05:00.009+08:00

so lastnight, we had a bbq at my place, a small celebration for my sister's 18th birthday and mine too. Didnt invite much people tho. Just few cousins, sister's friends and her boyfriend, and i only invited them boyfriends (joul and btg). Girlfriends, sorry inda terinvite kamu ah~ psl it was just a small bday celebration for sister esp. Nanti2 tah ahh~ hehe :D

so yeah, here are some pictures of lastnight event. Didnt take much pictures tho.

home-made pizza, again?? hahahaha. Made 3-diff pizzas. Hawa, aku modified lagi resipi mu abit. hehee~

mcm twins kan banar???

them boyfriends. Had a great time with 'em, gooooddd laughs. My sister invited 7 of her friends and i only ivnited 2. Yet the laugh that i had with them boyfriends mengalahkan durg kawan2 adiku!!! sampai cousins ku cakap, "ehh 2 org saja tapi riuhnya mcm 10 urg!" HAHAHAHAHAHA! ;p;p

thanx you two for coommiinnnggg. We really had a gggooooddd time as usual kan, didnt you?? ketawa ambuk hj bakhil, kata-KATAmuu~, iklan g-haris yg batah, tadarus lah konon kn arh urg nikah lah konon, dyg senandung, tarap cbtg konon perasan damit p mendalam suprano bunyinya, alfie's hairstyle, kan membari modal bisnes tapi credit $5 inda tebali, alum lagi incident d huaho time bali bbq sos when he suddenly called me up and i was like ular-bini-belingkar (ko tang jgn ko kan tawa2 senyum ayam tua membaca text ane dsana atu!!!) HAHAHAAHAHAHA!!!

and to you hj mulah, ....."biasa 2 tahun celebrate bedua, dtg2 ane celebrate sorang"... YOU ARE WRONGGG!!!!! yess you are so wrroonnngggg!!!!!!! i celebrated with MANY MANY people which i LOVE THE MOST!!!!!!! HAD TONNES OF FUN THE MOST!!!!! 2 years of celebrating my bday just for one day, ane SEMINGGU ku celebrate!!!! (dtg dari ati ni ah yo, bukan dari bibir mcm kisah dia-dirimu-& anak ngian) BWAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! jgn maarrreeee~~~~ ;p;p

oh well, tomorrow is weekend, and weekend meaaannnss???~~ ;p;p

p/s: love you MAMA-BABAH!!! ♥♥♥

Assalamu'alaikum

Happy Birthday NOI!!!!!!

2010-01-21T19:15:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY to my dearest sister

NORDINI!!!!!!~~~

love you to the bits sister!!!!! ♥♥♥

Tonight?? BBAARRBBEEQQUUUUEEEEE!!!!!!!! celebration of my sister's and me birthday!!!! :D:D mwahx!!!

p/s: unfaithful me

Assalamu'alaikum

Happy Birthday JOUL!!!!!!!

2010-01-20T17:10:00.007+08:00

HAPPY 22nd BIRTHDAY to teman baik ku
ZULFADLI YAHYA!!!!!!!!!~~~

happy birthday joul a.k.a tamban munjung/aji idup/ilang-seri-pasal-stukin-cbtg/kata-KATAmuuu~~/c jangul!!!!/"awal ashari" (mmiihhiiiirrr).. oh well, too much to be mentioned bah banarnya. hahahahaha! ;p;p

May Allah bless you always dude. Love you aaalllllwwwaaayyyyssss!!!!!!!~~~~

p/s: people can change.. so do i

Assalamu'alaikum

16th January :)

2010-01-19T23:48:00.001+08:00

my days had been okay so far, Alhamdulillah :):) Being a year older, hhmm... not bad huh.hehehe~

i just back home, had dinner at kotak-keju with my bestfriend syahmi then watched muvie, "the spy next door" .. the muvie wasnt that bad tho, cali and in some way, sweet jua hehe. Thanx alot syahmi kambing ku syygg!!!! love you!!!!!

Anywayyyss~~ as for my 22nd birthday (16-01-2010), i spent my morning at DCA with them AME's friends til afternoon. Was supposed to have a farewell function for us attachment students utk belanja org AME, tapi jadi majlis doa selamat tarus sempena bday ku.hehehe.It was great! tho kena surrounded by veteran peeps hehehe. BIG thanks to my grilfriend mijah and my shang too for the surprise birthday cake. You guys are soooo sswwweeeettttt~~~~ what a good plan you guys made sampai aku inda realise! lols. And the prezzies too! i LOVE it berabis!!!!!!!!! *grouphuggssss* ♥ so here are some of the picturess masa d AME :)

ohh my shang loves my home-made pizza so much.Aaawwwwww~~~ credits to hawa for sharing the recipe ;);)

present ttiiimmmmmeeeeee!!!!!!! *giggles*

AME's crazy friends.ekekeke.Love love kamu!!!

a necklace from him shang (so sweet!!!!), and a bracelet from me girlfriend (blink2 nyah! aku suka berabis!)

after the function, ni nah ku kana buli! andang nya ni urg AME ane mendera anak urg saja, kamu mun kan keraja sana baik tah pikir 2 kali.bwahahahaha! moral: jgn beulah! jgn belabih! mun nda kana taing leher pakai tali ;p;p

malam?? with them boyfriiieeenndddsss!!!!! sempoi yet fun! went to taman jubilee, had nasi katok, tongkeng and pulut panggang.

lepas atu?? beullaahhhh-belabih time!!! life cudnt me more valuable, cudnt be more meaningful mun inda di fill up with beulah moments. Life wont be much fun mun inda belabih. Iiiinnndddaaaa jaaaa???????~~ selagi masih MUDA atu, puas2 tah beulah-belabih dulu. Pasal i do not want to feel and be like those who are old before their time.muekekeke~ ;p;p

the greatest bday ever!!!!! :D:D

p/s: pushing me to forget your faults is like you scratching your ears with your own elbows

Assalamu'alaikum

♥ najwa

2010-01-15T23:21:00.000+08:00

najwa and me vaining the night before my birthday. Jobless banar tah sudah tu kami ah. This is why i love her very much! hahahahahahaha ;p;p

♥♥♥

p/s: tomorrow~ :D

Assalamu'alaikum

all-time!

2010-01-14T22:48:00.000+08:00

my all-time favourite song! ♥ :)

p/s: craving for soto :(

Assalamu'alaikum

memasak session

2010-01-11T23:48:00.003+08:00

these are yesterday's pictures with them girlfriends. Credits to hawa for the pictures. More pictures arh facebook. Enjoyed the whole day much with them! ♥

first i went to loft bakery shop to take wana's surprise bday cake.heee~ then went to kelly's place to meet the others. And so then we off to pick up wana & then jalan beli brg utk memasak. For our lunch?? we had home-made pizza, ambuyat & side menus nya, tempe & ikan salai. Right after lunch, keluarkan suprise birthday cake sii wana~~ hope you like it babe! :D:D

membuat pija

tempe!

pija!

happy belated birthday wana!!! ♥♥♥

ambuyat time!!!!

advance birthday present from kelly. Thanx kel!!! ♥♥♥

part of kelly's gift, new earings!!! love it!

make up session. hahaha! Tryin' out kelly's newly bought mascara. lols

wana with the eye-liner.hehehe

wana perming kel's hair, while me? abis ku tocang nigga rambut nya sebalah. Remix style rambut c kelly tarus hahahaha

and as for today, i went out with hun for a while as he will be posted to KB starting from tomorrow. sighs?? no! well, abit lah kali. hahahaha! ndapa, pasal he'll be here in bandar every weekend, especially THIS weekend! *atu banaaa~~* ;p;p

oryts, gotta sleep now. Nite everyone! =)

p/s: 16th :):):)

Assalamu'alaikum

ambuyat

2010-01-09T23:54:00.003+08:00

just had ambuyat with them family and cousins tadi. Sembahyang hajat for abg. Together with ambuyat we had sayur pucuk, daging masak tumis, ikan rebus, udang goreng, cicah tempoyak, ayam panggang ideal, and.... ntah inda ingat. ehehe.

dating with cousins, done! with them boyfriends, done! and tomorrow i'll be dating with them girlfriends plg, cooking for lunch together, can't wait! :)

and on monday?? heee~ LAGI lah i can't wait! *giggles* ;p;p

oh well, it's late sudah. Gotta sleep now. Gonna have a very long day lagi esok.hhmm :)

Assalamu'alaikum

life's fun

2010-01-08T22:15:00.003+08:00

another shopping day.. AGAIN??? buhuhu~

just got back from miri 2hours ago with them parents. Didn shop much this time, well.. i guess. ekeke.

been shopping too much than i supposed bulan ane eh! bought 2 hand-bags, 2 baju, 2 jeans, 2 high-heels, bracelets, earings, perfumes, shorts, few stuffs for my room, uurrmm.. what else huh? oh a new bra! bwahahahahaha!!! and some other stuffs too. Gotta control all this next time eh, that's IF i can. hmph!!! another new BAD habit, haiyoyoo~~ *geleng2* :s:s:s

anywaayyysss~~~ ive finished with my SWE report write up, FINALLY!!!!! tinggal printing and binding. Gila tu report ah! 3 days in a row mata mcm panda since due date nya dekat sudah, didn hve enuf sleep. Mcm, its been 6 months nada migang micro word, just screw-drivers, bolts-nuts apa. Sandi rasa membuat, sungguh saya tidak suka office work ini. hmph! and common skills work is killing me too! finding evidence and stuffs, sampai ku lupa topic final project ku masa yg last semester and i have to text my project partner Ewan asking for the topic. HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! gila, bebanar ku membuang itb atu jauh2 dari hidup ku!! Notes ku pun jadi perkampungan labah2 sudah! hahahahahaha! ;p;p

Now it's time to relax. Is it?? NOT!!!!!!!! hhmmmpphh!!!!

holidays, saya jadi pembantu rumah dan juga supir tanpa gaji. Oh ya, sungguh "SERONOK" rasanya. lols.

busy weeks. Brother will be off to kapal this sunday for 4-5 months *yeayy!! ;p;p* So we gonna have a sembahyang hajat for abg tomorrow night *ngaleehhhh~~* And this sunday, i'll be spending my day with them girlfriends, swimming && cooking lunch since they gonna start with their uni this monday.

And by nextweek, hun will be posted to KB. huhuu

apa jua jauh kb n bandar. Bukan mcm uk n brunei ;p;p

oh well, gotta go now. Will be attending an exhibition at itb esuk awal pagi *pengsan*

chiawss~

p/s: in love with turquoise colour :):):)

Assalamu'alaikum

Happy Birthday EZUANA!!!!

2010-01-07T18:08:00.009+08:00

HAPPY 22nd BIRTHDAY my dearreesstt bestfriend,
DK NURUL EZUANA PHM!!!!!!!~~~

love you to the bits babe!!!!!!~ ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Assalamu'alaikum

heavy shopper

2010-01-05T22:08:00.005+08:00

allowance just cme out. Why ohh why abg toyib is so baik hati this month?? biasanya lambat iya keluar. Oh well, alhamdullilah nyyaaammuuuuu!!!! because i want to shop!!

haiyyoo!!~ saya makin kuat shopping. Why ohh why huhh?? Mcm it's a must!!! Every month!!! Handbags, shoes, heels, shirts, jeans, make-ups, accessories, even groceries thingy! Im such a heavy shopper!!! Gotta control this! Seriously!!! buhuhuu~

just got back home dari jalan with them boyfriends, joul & btg. Was supposed to buy cover rim for my tyres since TERpacah tadi ptg *huh!!!*, tapinya inda jua belurih nah. Bejalan2 bejaur jua saja nah keraja kami, buying dvds and other stuffs tah pulang! HHEEHHHH!!!!

and now i just remember one thing.... kan alter baju RUFC ku tadi pun telupa wah nah! HHHMMPPHH!!!!!

plus, babah's car lagi broke, betahan di workshop and OFCOURSE babah has to pakai kerita ku! buhuhuu~ :(

oh well, jadi budak baik ku ni for a week. Really?? Hell no!!!! bwahahahaha. Next place to shop, miri beybeehhh!!!! (again??) hahahaha! perhaps friday with them boyfriends. So cant wait!!!!! shopping shopping shopping shopping~~~ mahu new jeans, heels, shoes, shorts, and ofcourse a dress.... at least A dress! tang joul, lawa wah baju tadi ah. Suka berabis ku! Yang baju 2 buting kamu pilih ah, sampai panjang queue tarus arh fitting room tadi atu *hinting2* BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!! joke ;p;p

bah berinut saya dulu. Report ku lagi alum siap nah. hmph!

ohh oh ohh, big thanks to judy for this picture, i love youu lottss!!!! :)

Assalamu'alaikum

hell

2010-01-04T00:03:00.003+08:00

home feels like hell when YOU are around. So can't wait for you to go!

big thanx to joul for the outing, so PACAH!!!! lapas lului mode ku sudah! lols

and big thanx to my hun too! get well soon hun!~ xoxo

p/s: slow & steady... much better than "ranoh2" :)

Assalamu'alaikum

NEW YEAR 2010!!!

2009-12-31T19:42:00.008+08:00

new year's eve. But me?? im just gonna stay in bed, onlining! hahahahaha buuurriiinnngg~~ i know! I want to go out and celebrate it actually. But friends are mostly busy with their own stuffs as most of 'em are going to celebrate their newyear with families bbq-ing. Even some of them are not celebrating here in brunei. Well, my first plan was to celebrate it in KB with friends actually, but as they changed the plan to celebrate it in KK instead, so inda tah jadi. Baru jua ku balik dari KK 2weeks ago nah.

few friends texted me up this afternoon, asking where am i going to celebrate my newyear this year, and so i said di katil celebrate dlm mimpi saja. Hahahaha! Yang banar jua tuu! Pasal the people who wants to bring me atu mcm only gather 1-3 people saja & liat bunga api d empire joining the publics, which is super boring! i mean, ramai2 lah siuk. Mun ganya 1-2people, buring jua tu! Krg takut ku aku sorang saja belabih melului. hahaha.So yeah, i decided to just stay at HOME! lols. Will be off to miri tomorrow with family til saturday.

lagipun, amah ku baru balik tadi. And my parents is off to a function malam ane, yatah obviously i have to stay at home jaga sisters ku! so here i am, staying at home, blogging, facebooking, msn, gulik2 macam buaya bini usulku! How FUN is that???? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! Luckily c anuari ada, err i mean c ann, weird jua aku panggil anuari atu HAHAHAHA! Anywwwaaaaayyyssss yea, baik jua ada c ann. Teman setia ku main game arh msn. So tonight im just gonna spend my new year's eve playing online gameesss. lols.

oh and yes, soon webcam-ing with them band friends nun di negara singapura sana. hehe :D:D:D

anyhoooww, this newyear's aint like the previous one, pasal i feel so isskkiii!!! i do not know why, but yeess, iski ku kan 2010!!!!!! eventho aku nada celebrate, again! T______T ...Glad 2009 kan habis sudah! malas kan mengungkit why, past is past. Gotta move on & chill saja!! :D:D

2010, so much things to do! A year to get busy! Applying jobs, UCAS, family thingies, exhibitions, GRADUATION!!!!! and so much morree!!

Got a phone call from MOH offering a job. Interview nya will be around this january. Not sure what post they're offering me tho, other ME's friends pun kena call. But all i know is, it's gonna be a permanent job, by contracts lah.

Well, to say it honestly, im not really looking forward to work at government sector. I still want Shell, or any other private companies like Mashor or Schlumberger. Did survey for job vacancies tadi petang since mama keeps on nagging me to find a job sementara awal ane jua, but i couldnt find one yg exactly applicable with my course as a mechanical engineer (or to be exact, i couldnt find the one yg fits to what i want/need. hahaha). My scissors-man suggested me to cuba apply arh banks, well... that's gonna be my very last priority plg tu bank atu. ekeke. Ain't choosy tho. Its not that im not ready to work. But i still prefer to further up my study bah, which must be away from brunei!! If inda dapat pun, at least i wanna kerja arh private company, away from bandar kah. Gotta learn how to live independently bah :):):)

oh well, newyear means a change from december to january, and january meaannnsss??? ekekeke. I feel so iskii!!!!!!! why??? pasal im still unattached & so i can celebrate it with friends!!!! i know this gonna sounds lame, but ive targetted something for my mum to buy it for me as my birthday present! *iski-much* HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! i want that high-heels di charles & keith, so lawa!! so tinggi & pointy!!! so hhoooottt!!!! *ccaaiiiirrrr* hahahahahahaha. Sounds kanak2, i kkknnnoooowwww~~~ pasal i do not like surprises, especially when that person bagitau that he/she gonna make something surprise supaya aku curious. Ohh i hate that feeling!! Cubatah kalau kan buat surprise atu diam tah saja, its not a surprise anymore eventhough i still dont know what the surprise is going to be. bla bla blah! hahahahahaha. Oh and im waiting something big from c ann. You've promised me dude!!!! *kirai2 arh mu* bwahahahaha!!!

lambat allowance ane eh! i wanna shop! I need to shop bah! lols.

bah gotta go now. ohh and...

azam baru?? ingin jadi lebih sexy (anuari,2009) HAHAHAHAHA!!! kid'n~ well, i just wanna enjoy my life to the fullest! && do crazy stuffs!!! to settle down??? nnaaaaaaaahhh~~~ ive done it before, azam 2009. Yes ive settled down before. but i do not like the outcomes, pissed me off berabis. So 2010, ENJOY!!!!!! Malam masih muda, nanti-nanti tah saja settle down. lols! ;p;p

p/s: dilemma, coz i do not trust myself.

Assalamu'alaikum

picture by ayiiem

2009-12-30T21:25:00.003+08:00

me picture taken by ayiiem during lunch-time with him tadi, sakai with his new digicam.hihii~ ;)

p/s: i'm still NOT ready

Assalamu'alaikum

i miss....

2009-12-25T19:42:00.002+08:00

went to jerudong beach for a sunset with zul tadi. unfortunately it was raining. blleerrgghh. So we just sit there, updating each others. Actually i was supposed to join my DCA's friends with my ucing lampo fishing at muara tadi patang, tapi last minit cancelled pasal inda belurih udang idup. Heishh. Rinduku kan suasana mengail eh, and i miss my ucing lampo too! sobs

joul's currently away, off to singapore & KL and will only be back on the 30th. Then follow by btg, where he'll be off to KK from 31st til 4th. Me kinda miss them now. sighs.

Alik's around actually til 29th, and iiem too. But i just don't feel like going out much. Did jumpa them few days ago, chilled at alik's studio. Yatah i kinda miss all the good crazy old timess we had.

I miss the old times of us beramai dalam alik's studio. Us singing, laughing, making songs together! Recording and stuffs. Not to forget about us kena marah by uncle lim if main2 and inda hit/sing the write note, then all of us tunduk2 saja mun kena marah. I miss that eh! :(

I even miss paintball moments. I miss the games, i miss marshalling so much! Us working things together, pacah2 ketawa, critisizing things, not to forget about mengatam thingy where all of us (the marshalls) save duit sama2. We even shared money to buy food and stuffs. And what i miss the most is, us sitting atas katil berasak2 melimpang beramai2 sharing pillows and selimut and watch dvds pakai laptop. Even siuk when the time we watched horror muvie masa hujan dalam bilik bepatang2 then ketakutan asak2 beteriak! And i even miss the time we played in the mud, hujan labat & gelap banar since spotlight nya nda tarang. Was supposed to work panyap2 barang, but turned out to be us begila main arah lumpur teriak2. Ohh i miss that SO MUCH!!!! :(:(

God, ive been missing so much things eh! Newyear is coming, and i still dont have any plan for newyear celebration. Couples of my friends did ask me to join them, but ntah. I just dont feel like celebrating it. I dont even feel like going out anywhere. For the past few days, duduk saja beparam di rumah. Eh macam urang frust saja bunyinya, im NOT!!!!! lols.

oh and, i really want to watch movie too. I really rreeaaaalllyyy wanna go out with him again, but the person i wanna go out with is kinda busy this week due to some pending works that need to be done before school reopen. Its understandable tho, so i save my time for nextweek lah. hehe. But still, i dont think i can. sighs. Sounds desperate much huh?? Nnnaaaaahhh~~ krg kana tarik telinga ku oleh si "BROTHERLY"-enough atu. lols ;p;p

Ohh im thinking to get another earpiercing lagi, especially on my left ear. Currently i just have 2 piercings on my left ear, and 4 on my right with one of them arh my cartilage. Hurts & bangkak tho, tapi aku suka! lols. Im thinking to make another 1-2 piercings arh my cartilage lagi.. ;p;p;p

hhmmm what else huh?? Oh oh oh!!! Kan ambil lesen motor jua ku! hahaha. Seriously, rugged bah. Kan bali motor ku, and thanks to alik for helping me survey2 arh kadai motor. I wanna buy one, WITH MY VERY OWN MONEY, instead of mengusut arh bapa/mama (if u know what i mean) berunding kan mau ambil lesen motor and minta balikan lah apa lah. lols. Hell, i really rreeeaaalllyyy wanna it! Bukan kapcai eh! atu buurrinngg hahahaha. And i want a four-wheel drive car too! eh basar awa nya bini2 ane banar, nda padan dengan damit tapi belabih! hahahaha. Rugged bah ;p;p Mama nda agree much about this plg, pasal bida bini2 pakai2 motor/four-wheel drive especially for a girl with the size like ME!! heeeell~ hahaha but after pujuk2 her, then ok ca!! ekeke. And babah is ok with that coz im like a son sudah to him, macam laki2 saja. ekeke ;p;p My crazy girlfriend, mizah pun mau ambil lesen motor. hahaha love you nyah!

oh oh i gotta go now. Will be off to sumwer soon, bergumbira instead of menurut kata2 jubur ku malas ane. nyeh nyeh. Chiaaoowwss~~

p/s: trust in your own heart.. coz life is more than history :):):)

Assalamu'alaikum

"BROTHERLY"- enough

2009-12-24T23:41:00.003+08:00

when the world revolves.. with life full of chaotics. Unbearable state of mind... and that's when all the joyfulness become so grey and flavourless ... and so i have to let all the fun things go, just for you, the "BROTHERLY"-enough person. Satisfied enuf huh??

p/s: what ever i do.. will always be wrong to you.hmm

Assalamu'alaikum

Happy Birthday AZIAH

2009-12-23T20:00:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to you AZIAH MUHAMMAD!!!!!!~ :D:D

BELABIH much!

2009-12-22T23:48:00.000+08:00

so here are our pictures, enjoying the last 3-days of our attachment, vaining!!!! and Belabih much!!! hahahaha!haha Kes nada kan d buat wah nie ;p;p

control lidah atu ssshhaaanngg~~ hahahaha! ;p

ucing lampoo asak2 hahahaha! ;p

reminds me of cover-kutak-KISIT the lanji's!! hahahaahaha!

janggut oh ur janggut, i love! (huh??) lols!

mihiirrrr~~~ busy tah krg! ;p;p

"BIG" boss ;p;p

setayyiiiee~~~ kaki damit! (4? 3? baby size??) ;p;p

3-days left. Then jadi ketua kampung, tanam anggur. huhu

oh i miss going to the beach anyway. Tungku.. or perhaps Muara beach (udah atu! udah atu! ;p;p).. I LOVE going to the beach than any other places, like so much!! At least once a week, mesti! The sounds of sea-waves, sunshine, the view of sunrise/sunset, the SEA-BREEZE~ i like it, calms me so much! hehehee :D

ohh i feel like kan watch movie too, ALVIN!!! and Sherlock Holmes pun!! Perhaps nextweek, oh allowance i need you~ again!! hihii~ ;p;p And i dont know why but im so craving for kek batik! anyone?~ huhu

anywayss~ im currently deactivating my facebook due to some personal reasons, plus aku malas, ngaleh ku sudah facebook-ing. huhuu. But just temporarily tho. hehee~ insyAllah will get back to it soon ayts. :)

p/s: ♫ ...terbayang senyum mu~ luruhkan jiwa ku~~... ♫ - (ridwan&faviq's)

Assalamu'alaikum

life full of dramas

2009-12-18T16:14:00.001+08:00

life.. full of dramas

been thinking to step out of this torny nest. Been trying to hide all the shit things in a box and put it aside, awaaayy from this hell of life. But i just couldn't. No doubt that life's been so grey and flavourless. But, to step out of this nest is like stepping off from my own feet.

So all i gotta do is to just stay in this messy torny little world of mine, and keep on trying to colour/flavour it up no matter what! :) Life, full with ups & downs. Just gotta be braved lah. Am i right? :)

Well, i think i'd been overly patience, and in some point, i'd been overly silent. Out of tears, so dry i feel. Sometimes i just feel like i am ineligable to say things out, especially when it comes to my family. Ain't complaining though. Perhaps coz of my unstable life, not until i get a perfect job with a betteeerrrrr high-paid salary.

I am a sister, and i am like the eldest-brother to my siblings too. I am the sister-&-brother to them. And i AM always trying to be the best role model to my adiks. Ive always tried to be the best for them, for my family, especially for my parents. Coz i wanna know how it feels being respected && appreciated. Not that no one has ever not respected nor appreciated me. But for me, being love, respected & appreciated by own family is the greatest feeling ever! That's why i never stop on trying to attract them family's attention. I wanna make them proud of me someday.

I love my family too much that ive always pretended infront of them, hiding the tears & hurts behind. Being compared to your siblings by your own parents no matter how much good things you've done, hurts right?? Even hurts when they curse you just because of your other siblings' faults that has nothing to do with you at all. Yess it hurts alot! But i love them too much that i rather makan hati instead of arguing & stuffs. No points pun, karang ketulahan bah. Infact, i believe sooooo much in karma. So better off silent dari ku melawan. Krg karma ku anak ku pulang kurang ajar krg. Am i right?? lols!

So here i am, trying to make my family's life into a better world. To make them proud of me. To care & love them. Kalau buleh, i wanna shower my parents with mmmoooonnnneeeyyyyy!!~ believe it or not, i'd worked 3 jobs in ONE time just for them, back when i was 19. Ngaleh huh? well, aint no things are ngaleh for my family :):)

>>> oh well, just wanna point out the things i feel. hhehehe.

Oryts, gotta get ready now. Will be off for sunset with them bestfriends, joul & btg. And later we'll meet up alfie too (｡❤‿❤｡)

p/s: crying in the rain & regretting?? well,that's not me :)

Assalamu'alaikum

belabih mechanics

2009-12-17T18:20:00.006+08:00

so these are the things that we did today & yesterday. Had tonnes of fun!!!! walaupun ngaleh, oily faces. nyehehe

YESTERDAY:
car servicing (sweeper & mini-trooper).

this is the MINI-sweeper. The one that we serviced atu is double-size of this!

ane masa servicing & repairing mini-trooper. Its a bleeding process. Ngusai2 clutch nya, tepaksa betunggang!

jubur dang kontrol! ovveerrr hahahahahaha!

i like this photo. Ucing lampo's face terpaksa d blurr kan, luan confidential krg kedapatan ;p;p

sapa besigup, cmane tah gigi nya ni krg *geleng2*

TODAY:
sambung servicing & repairing (bleeding & pasang piston) mini-trooper

AGAIN!!! terpaksa ku blurr kan. hihihii

i like this photo very much!!!!

and this picture pun!!! belabih much huh? lols!

so thats it. Hari senin lagi yah~ hehehe.

Oh cant wait to meet them cangkirs esok. Sunset oh sunset~~~~ wweeee!!!! :D:D

and oh oh oh, SELAMAT TAHUN BARU 1431 HIJRAH to all muslims!!~~ :D:D

p/s: running from your problem is like running from your feet. And so just you can't :)

Assalamu'alaikum

bbq at Muara

2009-12-16T20:32:00.005+08:00

so here are our bbq's pictures that i promised.

Had tonnes of fun! More bbq chickens, and other fffooooooodddd *slurrpp* We took lotsa jump-shot pictures too, and and and we played volleyball sama a traditional kinda game, eerrrr... something 3 something namanya. Was it 3-selipar game?? hahahahaha! cant remember eh! It was wana's idea actually. I bet you guys have played this game before pun. The rule where you have to use 3 slippers and make a triangle-like thingy, heiisshhh you know what i meant lah. Ngaleh ku kan explain. Didnt take a photo of it pun nah, telupa bah. hehehe.

Oh and before we went home, we took another jump-shots', again!!! hahahaa. and and and i came up with an idea of making a flower pakai~~.... ntah i dont know what they call it. Coz im NOT a biology nor a geography student. What do you expect for a mechanical engineering student to be then?? We know less/nothing about nature. Why?? Coz we're mostly dealing with the non-decompose thing which is METAL! So obviously we are the one yg POLLUTE the nature. Hence there's no use if we learn about the nature environment nor even abt plants or stuffs that are alive. hahahahaha! But i still remember some of the beach plants' scientific names tho, like dillenia suffriticosa (pokok bunga simpur if im not mistaken), and hibiscus tillaceus (sp??). Oh cant remember the exact spelling anyway hahahahaha. Atu back when i was involved in PRYNSA 6 in 2003-2004!!! lama bah sudah, yatah nda ku ingat. hihihiii

ANNNYYYWWWAAAAYYYYYSSSSSS~~~~~ since our bbq's pictures banyak, so i made it into a slide show instead. enjoy :):):)

p/s: Allah itu maha adil. What you give now, is watchu gonna get later. Nauzubillah~ :)

Assalamu'alaikum

Hello Kitty!!!!!!

2009-12-15T18:27:00.008+08:00

Look at those. Aren't they sweet && cute?????

well you may not believe it, but im a BIG fan of HELLO KITTY since i was a kid! Sounds kanak-kanak huh?? hahahaha. C'mon~~ hello kitty's so cute bah. geheheee~ (｡❤‿❤｡)

look at those. Its BLINK-BLINK, me loike the most!!!! i wanna make one arh laptop ku jua IF d brunei ada! So lawa!!! So cute!! So berkilau!!!! So much blinks!!!!! *pengsan*

and this one?? pun LAAAWWWAAAAA!!!!!! especially the black one, lawa lawa lawa berabis!!!!!!! Eventhough ada hello kitty's logo, still i find it rugged! Specifically for girls lah saja, ofcourse! dduuhh~ hahahha.Lawa berabis ehhhh~~~ *pengsan lagi* hahahaha. Coz ive been thinking to buy a new guitar (guitar kapok plg saja tu.lols) since the last 2 months, tapi alum tah jua sampai2 nya. geheheee~ ;p

ohh and this one pun sweet juuuuuuaaaa~~~

and finally, the one i love the most! Rugged ah!!!!!! hahahahaha. Believe it or not, i was googling about snipers & guns stuffs, and they actually have the real hello-kitty-gun! Yg banar-banar, bukan mainan! Even the armies in sweeden pun pakai ane wah. Surprisingly, laki-laki, bukannya bini2 yg makai!!! hahahahahaha!

oh well, enough about hello kitty's. hehee. Will post the pictures of us bbq-ing at muara beach once i gt it from them girls yea. hehee.

(｡❤‿❤｡)

Assalamu'alaikum

happy birthday NAJWA!!!!

2009-12-13T23:04:00.009+08:00

HAPPY 10th BIRTHDAY (13-12-2009) to my sweet "little" sister KHAIRUNNAJWA!!!!!!!~~~~ (sengaja put her name in purple since she LOVESS purple so much. kuikuikuii)

Kaka loves you so much sayang!!!~~ You know that sudah kaann~ gehehe. I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU NO MATTER WHAT!!!!!!!! Kisses & hugss for you sayang~ XOXOXOXO (gossip girl's style) ;p;p

She's the bestest among the best! She's the air to my world, OFCOURSE!!!!! She's my happiness (walaupun kadang2 buat ku marah, because i'm such a pembuli sister jua! ;p;p)... No matter how depress i am, she always know how to put smiles on my face. She is my everything!!! huhu

Promise i will get a BETTER present for you nextmonth najwa. :):):)

ohh ohh ohh, badan ku habis gatal2, and and and sunburn!!! uuurrgghhhh!!!! So ichy berabis, merah-merah gatal here & there. Maybe coz of the sea-water kali, or perhaps something that i should not supposed to touch di pantai atu. Coz i joined them girlfriends bbq-ing at pantai muara yesterday after lunch hour. Gerenti ketulahan nie pasal escape keraja half-day saja. sighs :'( :'(

anyhow, i watched "princess & the frog" with the sisters tadi. The movie was cute! && so so romantic & adorable!!! And i watched "santau" with wana & ziah last thursday night. The movie was ok. Well, not just ok, tapi berijap!!!!!!! I screamed on MOST of the scenes!!!! Plus our seats lagi dapan2! 3rd rows from the front seat! Eh gila, i mean like... there was no one infront of us, && during the movie, i was like "..eh palui ni krg mun mengajut ada tia antu duduk dapan kami ane cemana nie?? cinema ane lagi ku dangar behantu. Cana ni cana ni??.." SERIOUSLY!!!!!! Mcm my concentration wasnt 100% on the movie, mikirkan seat di dapan tah plg! HHEEHH!!!!! hahahahaha. But santau's the best malaysian horror movie lah. Apart from jangan-pandang-belakang. Atleast atu marak sikit mata ku meliat, but santau! PALOI!!! hahaha ;p

oh better sleep now. Its 1.48AM!!!!!!! Ada jua antu ni karanag. NNNAAUUUZZUUBBBIIILLLAAHHHH!!!!~~~ :s:s

p/s: alhamdulillah~

Assalamu'alaikum

stand-up!

2009-12-12T22:04:00.002+08:00

no matter how your heart is grieving, but if you keep on believing.. the dream that you wish WILL come true~ :):):)

*inhale-exhale, smiles*

didn't tryna make you as my enemy tho. BUT for sure, my life ain't gonna stop til here just because of YOU! :):)

stand-up stand-up!! I'm young, fully-determined, committed, unique & brave. Pasha pasha!! Haiya haiya butssaa!!!!! :D:D

p/s: stand "tall" , stay STRONG. :):)

Assalamu'alaikum

1001 things

2009-12-11T12:43:00.003+08:00

i can list down 1001 REAL facts about you... i can explain 1001 reasons between you & me... and i can make BILLIONS of words of you&me's stories WITHOUT exaggerating much!

but to think it back, better not. Doesnt worth at all. Because i know, you don't deserve all the good true things in the future! Have fun while you can, laugh as much as you want to, give love out while you feel you can, do whatever you want to do, but in the end, the truth will show up to you. That's what karma is all about

good-luck! :):):):):)

p/s: no tears are meant good for you.

Assalamu'alaikum

shit things always happened

2009-12-09T16:38:00.006+08:00

2009's been a VERY VERY TOUGH year! Thinking of all the moments, goods & bads, with the SIGHS. I just cant get it right. Enough with me taken the wrong steps, done with the not-truely-ever-after love stories, with the fake 1001% commitments. Im so fucked up with all those shitty things happened. Well, PAST IS PAST!!!! and yess, i had ignored those untrue motherfuckin' stuffs. I'd moved forward, living my life to the fullest, happy then ever, YET.... the joy-killer always, yess ALWAYS there ruining my happy daysss!!!!

Inda jua ku pernah kan menyibuk hal urang, saying bad things, exaggerating much behind people's back, especially about family stuffs, NOT!!! Coz i AM ALWAYS HAPPY with my life. Not that i love living in my own world, tapi luan busy-body kan memburuk burukan pasal urang atu, its not a healthy way of life you know. Okay, maybe you'll feel satisfy enough dengan mengata hal urang behind their back, but til when?? and will you EXACTLY satisfy with it?? Instead of hurting that person by telling bad stuffs abt them to other people, dont you think you are hurting YOURSELF actually??

I am very flexible, aint pessimist, love surrounded by DIFFERENT KINDS of people coz i ALWAYS am the queen of laugh. I love living in many people's life. I love trying new stuffs, even if it gonna hurts me, both mentally/physically, i don't mind really. Coz i do not, i repeat, i DO NOT rely on theory! and i DO NOT like living in imaginations! Macam cakap inda serupa bikin. Coz life nowadays isn't a thing which always base on theories! plus, i AM NOT the black-sheep in my family. I am just unique in some ways. i LOVE my family, and ive NEVER ignored them in any kind of way. Friends come & go, boyfriends come & go, but family never comes & goes! Coz they are EVERYTHING to me NO MATTER HOW BAD they are!!! i am not a type yg depend too much on family either. But i just love them, even when they ignored me much. Who are we without our family huh?? Walau diri jadi lumpur, tanah jua saja yg menerima kitani. No matter how bad you are, family sendiri jua yg saja dapat accept kitani. So jangantah kan memburuk burukkan family sendiri, especially the PARENTS, no matter how bad they are!

if YOUs OUT THERE think that i am such a bad girl to HIM, sudah tia ku beboyfriend masa ani. IF YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN~ hate me as much as you want to. But someday somehow, you guys will think abt it again. Telling personal bad stuffs of a person who trusted you very much to the other people when you no longer with him/her, do you think thats good enough huh?? i bet YOU guys out there are MATURE enough to think about it, at least!

i aint cheap to EASILY fall in love with other person, especially when im in a relationship, no matter how fuckin' bad my boyfriend is, coz i aint as bad as what you guys think out there. Even when i just broke up, i DO NOT find it easy to love & find a new replacement. Even IF i do like someone, that person might just be my REBOUND!!! So better off single rather than taking the risk proposing someone in your life just to cover up the pain that you have! In a relationship, i can be just like the-sweetest-boyfriend-to-the-girlfriend-ever. Coz i am NOT the type of girl waiting for their boyfriend to do stuffs for them.. i DO NOT mind if im the one who give roses to my special boyfriend, preparing candle-light dinner for 'em, drive 'em to wherever he wants, back him up & support him whenever people look down on him, or even if i have to confront his parents just to tell 'em how much i love their son! I can be his bestbestbestfriend ever, & i can talk about anything & everything. I can do crazy things for my love one, & to me no things are impossible for my boyfriend. As long as him giving the same amount of commitment as me! Being in a relationship, i am a STRIKER, && a CHEERLEADER too!

Yess, i do admit that i have more boy friends than girlfriends. I love hanging out with boys than girls. but I AM NOT A FLIRT! for me, boys are easy to talk with, & i can talk about whatever i want even if its a really really personal stuff to talk about, even if its a very very harsh things to say. I can go out & chill with them at anywhere, everywhere without them complaining, without me being kana kacau by unknown mihir guys! But of all, i aint choosy in making new friends. And yess, i can easily get close to them. And yet, i still love my best-girlfriends/boyfriends to the bits! (you know who you are)

Afterall, i AM still me.. and no one has ever said that ive changed, EXCEPT for YOU!! why is that?? obsess much that you have to fitnah me huh??

enough said.

p/s: how pathetic you are! dont you know that??

Assalamu'alaikum

think twice

2009-12-07T02:31:00.003+08:00

i was typing whole bunch of bad motherfuckin' things with a really really BAD words yg melucah menyumpah.. almost kan ku post tadi. But to think twice, i DONT wanna be such a KANAK2!! be mature dang~ :):):)

just one thing i want to remind YOU (you know who you are dude/s).. stop saying bad things behind my back, especially abt my parents, yg tarang2 NDA lurus nya & NADA kena mengena to what had happened between us.

Its ONLY between YOU & ME!... if you're MAN enuf, come & confront me! coz you're messing up with the very wrong person dude! Seriously! :)

and to those USED-TO-BE-CLOSED FRIENDS OF YOURS, hearing to one side only?? i dont think thats enuf kan.. :):)

oh well, a good actor always make good cast & scripts. 'innit??

and a good boy?? wont play with indon tukang urut di labuan, if YOU guys know what i mean :):):)

oh well, to the second VICTIMS, goodluck! :):)

and after almost 5months, me still dont wanna have a boyfriend... well, i believe you guys are MATURE enough to judge US right?? :):)

p/s: thats what life is all about... ALHAMDULILLAH~ :D:D:D

Assalamu'alaikum

Fly high~

2009-12-02T21:12:00.005+08:00

a very verryy unPRODUCTIVE day at the office, again! hahaha

was supposed to help the other mechanics usai fire-truck F10, tapi tapi kami maaaalllaaaassss. ekeke

so we took pictureeessss duduk2 atas fire-truck, F10

si sayang ku nampak ah!! ;p;p

Oh i went out with kelly & hawa tadi sekajap lepas keraja, just to buy few stuffs then chilled at snow-ice sumthin, nda ku ingat namanya, its somewhere in gadong, sebaris Mc.Donald. A very cool place tho :) && yesterday, me had dinner at cheezbox with syahmi, a VERY lastminute plan. gehehe~ tapi sia-sia pun with the ultimate chocolate pasal sudah habis wooo. Anyhow, thanx for the dinner syahmi!!~ hhugggss :D:D

Oh ohh, me cant wait for tomorrow. Flllyyy hiiiggghhh~~ & close your eeeyyyeeessss~ let it lift you up up uuuppp~~~

♫ ;););)

Nah rindu tia ku kan galpren DCA ku si mijah krg nii, sama kedurau, sama babah d DCA, sama si minggir, sama c giant, sama sama sama... ohhh! sama c uing-lampo-tapi-mengurus-sudah kuuu!!!!!~ mijah jagakan! pastikan ucing lampo pakai kasut, jgn selipar, jgn memihir ja, jgn melahip! hahahaha ;p;p

bah bah, i better chiaow now. Bobo bam-bam ku! Zzzzzzzz~~...

p/s: awuu!!! aku andangnya belabih!!!! lols ;p;p

Assalamu'alaikum

quick update

2009-11-30T22:48:00.002+08:00

just a quick update

had my breakfast at C.A MOhd

spent the whole day at the mall gadong, doing survey on brunei weather forecast. Felt so bored sama fade up sudah with the survey, && yess didn have any idea what to question the public. So what we did?? Membual! lols. Answered the survey paper sendiri membual, then the souvenirs kami bawa balik! Now i have 4-5 notebooks, few pens (i think more than 4 pens kali) hahaha, && few stickers. lols. Ndapalah. Sama jua today is the last day, & tomorrow & the day after tomorrow, we gonna summarise on what he had surveyed. Pictures? Esuk2 lah ahh. hehe. Ngaleh ku, exhausted bnr rasaku.

i need holidays, yess holidayssss. Cant wait for this 3rd dec! *giggles* :D:D

i wanna shop! yes yes shopping!! Saw few nice dresses at ego tadi, & i felt like i wanna buy at least one, tapi ku tahan. Tunggu tah 3rd ane, nyehehe~ then i saw shorts & cute thsirts, sama handbagss tapi TERpaksa ku tahan. Except for the jamaican beany (sp?)!! Lama sudah ku cari tu! Yatah TERshopping jua ku tadi kan nah. Hmph! But i love it so much!!! Suka ku!!! Puas hati ku, nda ku menyasal. ekeke ;p;p

oh oh oh, why did you follow the way i blog?? nyeh nyeh nyeh. Not perasan, but its obvious!!! Obvious banaaaa waaa dang~~~~ bah bah bah, mana2 aja u tah~ :)

i wanna bobo dulu. Oh before that, YOU're so cool dude!!! eh eh sama sama, i wanna watch NEWMOON so bad!!! Edward Cullens *caaiirrrr* ;p;p

bah bah bah, toddles~ Zzzzzzz.....

p/s: moments turned to memories~

Assalamu'alaikum

thanx boyfriends :)

2009-11-27T22:45:00.005+08:00

just got back home after jalan2 with them bestbestbest boyfriends... itb-tungku-kianggeh-taman jubilee (sp?)

went to tungku with joul... && thanks so much joul for the sunset at tungku, FINALLY!!!! nyahahaha

&& thanks to btg & alfie for joining us d kianggeh after the sunset tadi. We really really had a gooooodd time, as usual! kan kan kan?? :D :D

thanks boyfriends for the lovely && wonderful day.. u know how much i love you guys ryt. U guys had been such a GREAT friends.. & such a good listeners too! From the smallest unimportant & uninteresting things to the biggest saddest, & the worst things ive ever said.. you guys are the best! Not forgetting my girls too, dang karaks-oke! Love you guys!!! :):):)

btw joul, banyak lagi lauk d lautan! Tapi one of a kind payah kan cari. Tau ku tu, paham ku tu rasanya. Apanya c btg, ATI ANE WAAAAHHHHH~~~~~~ nyehehe. Seribu tah yg datang, mun HATI ane terasa kan be"REVERSE NON-STOP" masih sayangkan the old one payah jua waahhh~~ *inside jokes* hihii. Jgn mrh taannggg~ ;p

oh well, esok cuti, another yeeaaayyyyy!!!!!!!! :D:D

Tapi still thinking what to do for tomorrow. Hhmmpphhh!~

oh oh anyway, SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDIL ADHA semuuaaa!!!!~ :D:D

p/s: ku merindukan mu.........

Assalamu'alaikum

super exhausted

2009-11-26T17:48:00.003+08:00

im tired.. super exhausted. lalah berabis. not 'nuff sleep lagi these past few days.

ngaleh ku sudah kan buat the survey

4days in a row, woke up very early than usual. Long trips. Jubur kampis duduk lama2 dlm kerita, duin nuthin'. Just curi2 dangar the lover-birds-selingkuh becakap damit2. Then tidur with them weedah & mijah, same position of us, kepala melentok2 ke kiri ke kanan mun tidor, and all the bumps abis tehantak kepala.

kali sampai at our locations, set up everything, then jalan2 cari "mangsa" kan di interview which is super duper ngaleh! Mulut bebuyah, asking the same things over & over & oveerrrr, in malay standard kalau boleh!! how??

"....assalamualaikum. Sibuk kita? Kami ane banarnya dari jabatan kaji cuaca, membuat kaji selidik mengenai perkembangan ramalan kaji cuaca yg abiskita ikuti di brunei ane. Dapat kami meng-interview kita sekajap? Biskita ada mendangar ramalan kaji cuaca? mcm dari tv kah, radio kah, atau mana2 lah?......"

that's only a PART of it tu!! Kalau ada yg nda mau kana interview, cemana nah??

"....eh simple saja ni~ dapat hadiah niiieee mun kita menjawab~..."

RASAKU SUDAH TU KAN MEMUJUK THE PUBLICS SUPAYA CAPAT KRAJA KU ABIS!!!! lols

Ada lagi urg tua2 yg banyak cakap atu, batah tah meng-interview tuuu. Tapi siok. Seminggu ane jadi urg tua tah ku ni. hahaha.

Alum lagi urg tua2 nya yg gatal, kanak2 skulah pun menggatal tia jua teminta2 email. HHHEEHHHH!!!!!

ngaleh ku eh! one more day to go. Monday at the mall. hheeiisshhhh!!!!

ohh i shudnt be complaining much plgg. Aku yg nda fit lagii. Need to jog!! Need to workout! Biceps ku kandur basar2 ke lamak usulnya ah!! Dumbell ku pun antah ilang ke mana. Mesti workout ni dang, MESTI!!!!

ouhh i need to rest,. So much things to do til january! Exhibition oh exhibition, betapa aku "SUKA" kamu nanti. lols. Will uploads gambar2 during the surveys nanti ayts. Mijah, si shyang ku adorable tadi tapi nda sampat asak2. Tapi ia sampat asak2 cium2 bantal saja. Sooo adorable! hahahahahahahahaha! Ohh esok cuti, YYYYYEEEEEAAAAAAYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D :D :D

p/s: where did i go wrong?? was i trying to hard all this long??

Assalamu'alaikum

'em cangkirs

2009-11-24T19:15:00.003+08:00

chatted with bff, c batang.. had a very very gggoooooooooooooddd laugh tadi. Oh i miss 'em cangkirs so much like berabisly berabis!!!! Planned few things with 'em cangkirs for december sudah. Yatah i cant wait eh!! Especially hang out at alfie's place. Rindu ku kan merubuhkan katil c alfie. HAHAHAHAHAHAAHA. And seriously, i miss 'em kantut fighting. HAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHA. Paalloooiii. hahahaha. And i cant wait for the new "joke" nanti, REVERSE lagi lagi lagi sampai picak! hahahahaha. If i was on the scene, gerenti aku tah yg melabang tu pacah ketawa tang eh! hahahaahahahaha. Coooolll~~ seriously, yatah gunanya kawan ni tang, to make you laugh durg ur crisis time. Mesra alam bah eh, awet muda. LOLS!!~ ohh i love you three cangkirs so much!! *group huugggssss* (i noe u gonna ucap & say gremlin & tamil thingy tang. Awas ko nanti, keluar jurus DRUM COMBO ku ni. && the new jurus of tamil! hahahaha)

Anywaayyss~~ the survey was ok tadi. Ke sumbangsih. && had pita burger tabam for my breakfast tadi!! sama cucur pisang sajuk-sekali-goreng-balik-tapi-nyaman-masih-karup2. hahahaha. && big thanks to that paji for his feedback yg memang bernas panas nanas mengamas! *thumbs up sampai ke jari batis!* haha

Esok ke kkkaayyybbbbeeeee!!!!!!~ mahu tidor awal but the mata is the very the degil ler.

Oh ohh, ucing lamppoo is very very veerryyy AADDOOORRRRAAABBBBBLLLLEEEEEE!!!!!!! Mijah adorable eh mijah ehh! Not palat memalat or pari memari mata jarang! lalalalaallaaa~~ "mcm steward ahh...." uuuwweeeekkk!! pari!! KARMA!!!! lols lalalalala~

p/s: counting the daysss... wwwwwweeeeeeee!!!!!~~ :D:D:D

Assalamu'alaikum

cair-to-ngaleh

2009-11-23T20:23:00.003+08:00

another Justin Bieber song, Where Are You Now?

ohh this guy is so so so soooo amazing!!!! His songs, his voice~ *cair* hahahaha. Aku suka berabis!! Aaaaawwwwwwww~~~~ *jadi aying cair* ;p;p

Anyway, Temburong trip was ok. Tiring tho. Plus sakai abit coz it was my first time turun temburong banar2. hahaha. Went to Hospital PIHM & Sek Men Sultan Hassan for the survey. Didnt get much tho, coz the staffs wanted each of us to interview at least 13 people per day. But on the first place, me & my group only managed to get 8 people for each of us. Pasal hospital nya sunyi nda banyak urg which is good for temburong people i supposed, semua urg temburong sihat2 nada yg sakit. hahahaha. So to add it up, we joined the another group di Sek Men Sultan Hassan, yet we only managed to get another 2 people saja, so total of 10people saja ku dapat. But it was fun tho, pasal urg temburong sporting berabisan berabis! Seriously! lols.

So before we went home, singgah sekajap di LIMBANG!!!!! Kami bah CHILLed tadi ramai2 d KFC limbang, langui2 meliat urg. hahaha. Damn it!!! Yatah saja tu wah tampat chill di limbang other than tampat "clubbing" nya di purnama hotel atu. LOLS!!

Tomorrow survey around brunei-muara, which is at sumbangsih!!!!!! i miss sumbangsih!! Pita burger nya nyaman!! SERIOUSLY!!!! Sama milo shake nya apa jua nyaman plus murah. Coz its been our routined hari2 pagi2 k sumbangsih sama urg opis. I mean, memang HARI2 except for jumat-ahad lah ofcourse. lols. Aku rindu opis juaa, aku rindu ucing laampoo adorable jua, sama kedurau, sama giant, sama nicholas DCA, sama hj talib., sama najmeh's clone jua, sama c alai magic. Semua ku rindu!!!!

sigh. 4 more days to go. Lusa ke kaaayyyybbbbbeeeeee!!!!! Then ttuuuutttooonnnngggg!! Then back to brunei-muara area, then hhaaabbiiiissss!!! nyeh nyeh nyeh

bah bah. saya ngaleehh mahu limpang. Waiting for my lucky 11-pm time.

p/s: 3rd december... pls come soon! :):):)

Assalamu'alaikum

unPRODUCTIVE day

2009-11-21T17:01:00.007+08:00

another unPRODUCTIVE day at the office. nyeh nyeh nyehh

went to ITB this morning to verify our personal information. Parking nya lagi payah. Ramai nnnyyaaammoooo~~~

then chilled at getoes area (weyseehh~) sama durang2 before balik. Panas sama baju ku bau sigup tarus! Mana lagi yg perasaan show-off kan cutting muscle tangannya yg etam kalat atu!!!! Heyy mata kaji, mengapa dikau terlalu mihir?? Adang tah memihirkan diri mu atu bah

Mana lagi yg lapar kan gossiping tadi atuu. Kesian galpren nya menunggu *kirai2 to that person* hahahaha

ada lagi urg atuu tadi... Ann, apa ko tantang tadi atu ehh??? Tau ku tu apa ko liat ahh ann!! Cibai lho! hahahaha

mana lagi yg titik2 warna oren tadi hahahahahahaha ;p;p

Oh oh oh, anywaayyy~~ he had a briefing tadi about kaji selidik dari kaji cuaca. Given a task to make a kaji selidik about the weather forecast thingy arh public, dari ujung sungai temburong ke ujung sempadan belait. lols. So we gonna be abit busy for a week starting this monday.

First, we'll be going to temburong this monday, and yess, by 6AM mesti ada sudah arh B23 building!!!! Uuurrgghhhh !!!~ (-_-')

Then the nextday, we'll be going to tutong kah. Eh nda ku ingat eh. Pasal form ku yg kana bagi tadi HILANG ahh!! Cuai me! Hhheeiisshhh!!

Ohh im so gonna miss my ucing lampooo opiss. Ucing garong sudah pindah (alhamdulillah~ hahaha). Kesian ucing lampoo nada dgn ni karang. Cana ni mijah? Nda kan di biarkan ia asak2 arah kedurau kali.. eh dapat ku masukkan ia dalam beg kah saja nanti? hahahaha. Kessiaann baahhh~ sweet adorable ucing laammppppoooooo mwah2. hahahahahaha

bah bah, lapar ku... nda ku mau kurus! Lapar ku lapar lapar, baik tah ku MATI nah. hahahaha

p/s: if you got to, you got to. 'innit??

Assalamu'alaikum

one time

2009-11-20T16:48:00.007+08:00

i LOVE this song! Lawa sama cute! (huh?).. hahaha.. influenced by my lil' sister, najwa. Balik2 di dangar nya, hari2 bah. lols

One Time (acoustic) by Justin Bieber

Ouhh, i love Zee Avi's songs too! Her vocal is so lawa! Been downloading her songs dari kemarin2. And ne-yo's new released songs pun. Ive been youtube-ing so much lately. Pasal i cudnt go out much pasal kan save duit for december sama i HAVE to jua, pasal no more allowances after december. hahahaha buring eh. Oh i love Maury Povich's shows pun. Nanti tah ku upload one of the show that i "like" the most. lols. Ane kan meng-upload video banar batah ahh. Entah2 anak ku masuk darjah 2 baru tah iya abis uploading kali. Connection nya lagi abit talur dari di malam, nda lagi berapa sweetoromantika d'amor dgn aku internet ane eh! hmph!

aannyyhhoooowww~~~~~ a very best of luck to all UBD & ITB-ians for their upcoming exams (tho some of them kan habis sudah exams durang) hehehe. So can't wait for december bayyybbbeeehhh!!!!!!!!! Wwwweeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!! ~~~~~ *giggles* :D:D:D

i want a WHITE-guitar so much!!! guitar kapok saja pun bulleehhh~~ can huh caaannnn????~

p/s: cause ive dried my eyes & i realised i deserve somebody that'll treat me right :):)

Assalamu'alaikum

;p;p

2009-11-19T17:00:00.002+08:00

sssssssssssswwwwwwwweeeeeeeeeeeetttttttt && ccccccrrrrrrrraaaaaaazzzzzzeeeeeeyyyyyyhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!~~~~

tapi RASA SIGUP AH!!!!!!!!! apa tu?? hahahahaahahahahaha

p/s: ain't exactly who i was when you last saw me.... 'innit??

Assalamu'alaikum

quotes

2009-11-16T17:02:00.005+08:00

just wanna share these 2 quotes i get from fb quizes. I like 'em alot! :)

"...Sometimes, you have to accept the fact that some people are going to stay in your heart forever... even if you are gone in theirs..."

"...Letting go of someone might be hard, yet it is the best way to make the other stay. Keep in mind that no two things can occupy the same space... at the same time "

Assalamu'alaikum

happy faces

2009-11-16T12:18:00.003+08:00

i like this photo very much. Smiles, happy faces, sweet moment. Tagged by abg from facebook. Taken during raya openhouse this year. hhmmm :)

p/s: this i promise you, ma.... i swear! sobs

Assalamu'alaikum

tungku beach

2009-11-15T13:37:00.005+08:00

this is what i miss the MOST!!!!! Sunset at tungku beach. I noe ive been sayin' this lotsa lotsa times, but heeyy... i mean, look at that, isn't that so so sooo lawa?? mcm, this is one of the main thing which can makes me calm, setenang tenangnya~~ apart from stars & full-moon. SO lawa bah!!!!!!~~ i miss going to tungku beach so much, sitting & chatting there with friends for hours and hours and hoouurrsss, ignoring of getting a sunburn. The sea-breeze lagii... & the sounds of kids bemain2.. and and memancing ttooo!!! I dun know why i love this place so much. No doubt if the other beaches like muara or berakas beach, or jerudong beach are much more lawa dari tungku beach, but STILL i prefer tungku than the others. I love this place so much!!!! majal, awu awu suka tah kau kan tungku beach berabis tu nnaahh. Nda juuuaaaa~~ hahahahaahahaha. ;p;p

oh well, im hunggrryyy.. ALWAYS hhuunngggaaaarrraaayyyyy!!~ aku tais liur chocolate cakes. Tapi tapi i have to save2 dulu. Bbbllleerrgghhh!!!!

p/s: 18more days to go.... not iski anymore!

Assalamu'alaikum

2012

2009-11-14T23:34:00.002+08:00

just got back home (again!!).... im tired, n yes im super duper slleepppyy, still i have the mood to blog.nyehehe.

Didnt spend much of my time at home this week, pasal i didn feel to jua. lols. And and and im missing my nini bapa & nini mama very much!! My bad, nada melawat durg. huhu. Isuk tah saja, pasal i have the feeling that im gonna have the feel not to bejaur2 esok. And that must be the MAIN reason why i felt sooo sleeeppyy d opis seminggu ane, &&& came up to work aher banar. muekekeke

anyway, i watched 2012 with mar tadi, ohh yess the muvie was awesome!! n we had jollibee for dinner which me looiikkee the most since im craving for spagetti durg dari lastmonth udah *sekadar* lols.

oh oh oh, pasal tadi when i picked mar up..... uuuhhhh that was cccllloooosseee!!!!! Ckit lagi kejumpahan!! Yatah i hafta slow down abit since i was exactly d belakang nya! Thanx to the hujan yg gelap tadi. Feeeewwwhhh~~

kelurusan jua aku membuang the i-should-not-keep stuffs tadi around rimba before ambil c mar. Been keeping that stuffs for yeaarrss & yyeeaaarrrsss yatah tadi barutah i have the guts utk membuang. hehe

bah bah i gotta go now. This mata is the very the berat lah suddaahhh. Nyte everyone! Loves loves loveessss y'all! XOXOXOXOXOXO (gossip gurl style. hahahaahah!)

p/s: missin' you....

Assalamu'alaikum

:):):)... :(

2009-11-12T22:30:00.004+08:00

just got back home from dinner with zul at khaz corner. Had a lamb-chop with some chips, which made me feel way way waaaayyyy much better sudah! Fastfood oh fastfood~ chips pun jadi tah :)

Wanted to post & cerita2 lotsa lotsa things since good stuffs came since early morning tadi, tapi unfortunately things turned out to be bad towards the end of the day. First, we really rreeeaaaaalllyyy had a veerryy veerrryyyy guuuuud time at the office since morning, very very verrrrryyyyyy SWEET unforgivable memories i wud say :):) STILL, there is a bad thing that always ruined my day. Wanted to watch 2012 muvie tadi pun last2 hafta cancel. Urrgghhh!!

Luckily i have the best friend to turn up to. So joul offered me to go to his house cerita2. Thanx buah hatiku tamban for being such a gggooooooooooodddd listener!!! muah2 hug2

So so so, to boost up my happy-mode balik semula, i went to khaz corner with zul. Wanted to go to KFC or Jollibee at giant tapi since zul suggested utk makan sana so why not. Plus im so so sooo craving for daging kambeng!!!!!! And and and yesss, i luuurrvvvveee it very much!!! Big thanx to you zul for the treat. hugs hugs.

Now im craving for ayam di sugarbun, sama craving for ambuyat at Aminah arif, && satey at gerai kianggeh pun. Mau very very verryyy much. In this kusut2 mode, i need ffoooooodd!!!! Yes i want to eat lots!!!! Im craving berabis!!!!! Biar ca ku lampoh mcm babi-pihink nah!~

oh talking about pihink-colour, i saw this pink & white roses tadi arh kadai bunga. Im not a big fan of flowers actually, especially roses. Except for jasmines, oh i LOVE jasmines very much!!!!! Tapi tapi tapi kan, sudah ku liat roses atu mcm aku maauuu. I wonder cemana baunya. Sampai i felt like i wanna buy that roses atu tadi tapi LAME jua tu kan bali bunga utk diri sendiri. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA paloi! Yatah aku "sia-sia pun" saja tadi since i really2 wanna noe cmana baunya. But still, i noe jasmines smell even bbbeeeetttttteeeerrrrrr than any other flowers. Hhhmmffhh~~~ :):)

Oh my eyes getting worst!!! Tadi pagi was ok, then after THAT incident, my eyes getting worst ca plg. Makin miiirrraaahhhh!!!~ Mirah mcm lipstick si cik bedah!!!!!! And it hurts berabis!! :(:(

ouhh i gotta rest now. Kan tidur tapi nda mau. Coz it's still about BKN dlm utak ku. Ouh im so fuckin' hating you! Fuck-up with your tryna-protect-you thing atu! Sudah mu susah baru tah kan mencari aku, baru tah kan asak2 arh family mu!!! and now yessss, ive totaly lost my respect in you!!!

bah bah, kan tidor ku. Zzzzzzzzz........

p/s: hanya satu pintaku

Assalamu'alaikum

i ain't

2009-11-11T20:21:00.003+08:00

i ain't confuse. I ain't exactly givin' up. I just want you to understand. Ain't tryna make these complex things of ours even more complicated.

I'm sick of waiting for such an unsure thing. Ain't tryna rush things up. I just wanna see the EXACT possibilities that i can SURELY get. Guaranty me with something, pls! Not a lie, not a fuckin' empty stupid promises.., but a TRUE effort of yours. Only if you could just REALLY understand what i want, what i need, & what i meant. Coz i'm fuckin' pissed off, fuckin' annoyed with this stupid motherfuckin' thing that happenned, ALWAYS happened for the past years, yet ended with NOTHING!!!!!! NOTHING!!!!!!!!!!

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enuf enuf! I is mahu mamam, then wanna finish reading the novel borrowed by kel (lama sudah ku nda membaca wordy thingy which makes me to rindu2 ITB's life, rindu ku kan membuat reports assignments presentations n aalll!!!).. bah bah i is the got to go now. Want to bobo bam bam awal since the mata is the so the mengantuks. Eh both of my eyes lagi merah, eyes' infections!!!!!! Yatah have to wear glasses which i is the very the don't like. eh! hmph. and dearest FRIENDS (esp ITB's & UBD's), I MISS YOU AAAALLLLLLLLLLLl!!!!!!!!! Cant wait for december!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D:D

p/s: 2012.... aku mau lliiiiiaaaatttttt!!!!!!!!!!!

Assalamu'alaikum

22nd achit tango!!!!

2009-11-11T00:03:00.011+08:00

HAPPY 22ND BIRTHDAY TO RASYID HUSSIEN a.k.a achit tango a.k.a c batang (banyak plg lagi ni a.k.a nya. lols)!!!!!!! - 10/11

tu nah baju mirah menyala aa c btg. Yg tangah2 memacak menugal atu bestfren setia kami masa paintball, awg blower. hahahaha. Ouh i LOVE these guys very much!!!!!!!! been thru all my ups & downs so much! Senang susah sama2, makan kelaparan sharing duit sesama bali makanan. Sharing "sd" selalu before. Mengatam sama2 which i adore the most!!!!!!!! (sorry kamu, gambar kamu yg latest abis ilang bah. C alpi lampo masih tapi batu belah batu betangkupnya "hawt-momma". C joul tamban2 kampung dusun manggis berabis masatu tapi hensem-munjung-tamban masih. C btg maintain ayam laut nya tapi innocent bari rawan ati mcm anak buangan tapi baik berabisan berabis!!!!!!) I LOVE YOU GGGUUUUYYYYYSSSSSS SSSSSOOOOOOO MMMUUUCCCHHHH!!!!!!!!!! ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ *group hugs*

and and and thanx to kelly abt tadi :):)

bah bah, im off to bobo bam bam selip selip dulu. Chhiiiaaaaooowww~~~

p/s: guarantee me with something... something that my heart can surely rely on. Can you???????

Assalamu'alaikum

pasha pasha!!!!!

2009-11-09T17:30:00.004+08:00

i llluuurrrvvvveeee this video. To those who feel like givin' up, u guys shud watch this. I like it pretty much! And and and, kesian ku meliat the guy in this video. Mcm, usulnya cematu bah, but he has his own self-motivation. Nyeh nyeh nyeh. Its really good tho.

i aint the typa person who easily get upset when things dont go on my way, IF i me & myself really want that thing to happen so much instead of THAT thing wanting me to make something happen lah. Ouh, u know what i mean lah. I just gotta gettup && go for it no matter how, no matter what! that's IF me want that thing instead of that thing wants me *majal* coz i do not 100%ly rely on fate. Coz my principle is, i go for it, work it out, figure it out, so THEN i will rely on fate :):)

Tapi tapi tapi, at some point if i feel so upset/down/givin' up or whatever, i just gotta look myself right infront of a mirror and say "i am young, pretty, unique & intelligent. Dont give up! Pasha pasha!!!!!" .. and yes, it works for me!!!!! hahahahahahahaha. If i'm stress?? aku bawa makan faaaasssstttttfffoooooooooddddddd!!!!!! Lapas atu ok ca ku as if like nothing happen. hahahahahahahaahha

Some people wud rather listen to songs mun stress/down/upset, just like what my friends did. But for me, better NOT!!! Pasal pasal i will cry tu for sure, && yes i HATE crying!!!!!! I dun wanna feel like a baby!!!! And i don't want that!!!! If i feel like i wanna cry, ambil perfume then ancitkan saja. Or anything which smells gggoooooddddd to me. InsyAllah ok tah ku tu. hahahahahahahaah.

Anywwaaayyyyyssss~~~ i went for McD with my best girlfriend yesterday tho hujan labat berabisan berabis!!!! And and and beguuuuurruuuhhhh!!!! which me is the dont like da beri2 da mucchh!!!! hmph!

Ohh ohh and yess, HAPPY 27th BIRTHDAY TO MY "BOYPPPRRREEENNN" d DCA!!!!!! Happy Birthday nnnyyyaaahhh!!! Mijah & me love yoouu very much!!!! u know that~ *bighugss*

hhhmmm... what else huh?? ohh yeeaaa, we watched Paranormal Activity at the office tadi. Since nada kan d buat so i went to komunis bali dvd. Been wanting to watch this movie since the last 2weeks pasal c alik sama c judy memajal balik2 becerita ah. Sasak ku. Plus arh fb ppl keep on mentioning paranormal activity blah blah blah blah! Gatal hatiku kan mau meliat jua bah. lols. Well, the movie was pretty awesome tho. Yet still not that scary pasal cerita nya penipu bukan banar ah! PENIPU!!!! Urg brunei ane saja labih2 ucapnya atu cerita banar. HHHEEHHHH!!!! *teriak* Tapi i like the 2 last scenes, mcm reeaaalll. And and katie's boyfren, sii Micah atu is ssswwweeetttt. Kan mijah kan?? mijah + nicah = micah! HAHAHAHAHA ;p

Oh well.... i miss to watch the sunset at tungku anyway. Mahu jalan sunset-ing tapi itu si awg kalengku sibuk at the gym. Kan swimming tapi esok tah. nyeh nyeh nyeh. Nda apa, pebaik tah ku nda besport, ALUM JUA KAMPIS jubur ku. Lain lah macaaaammm~......... *senyum2 sama c mijah* ;p;p

bah bah gtg now. Mahu watch muvie && tdor awal. Chiaow~

p/s: 24 more days to go :)

Assalamu'alaikum

so wrong

2009-11-08T21:03:00.004+08:00

i am so over you...

me forgiving you?? ....i take back what i said. Everything!

coz i dont go for a fuckin' pengecut guy like you.

you havent change at all... and you will NOT change! ...believe me!

i was so wrong! very very wrong... !! To trust you... and to trust my family, and my parents too, for them who convinced me to be with you so much!

and i was sooooo wrong for thinking of giving another chance to you... to us!

i'm sick of being your doormat!!

and you know what, the INNER side of you is much more pundan than him.... soooo muucchh mmmoooorrrreeeeee!!!!!!!!

sobs. I need a perfume now!!!!!!!!

p/s: 25 more days to go...

Assalamu'alaikum

hhmm

2009-11-06T20:30:00.006+08:00

counting the days.

p/s: melodi kasih *thumbs up!!*

Assalamu'alaikum

givin' up!

2009-11-04T21:28:00.005+08:00

Feels like givin' up!....

p/s: let it be....

Assalamu'alaikum